Bahagia ini milikMu

Bismillah..

Now i already started working for 2 weeks plus. Hehe. Semua orang tegur lama nye cuti ;p

Well.. Alhamdulillah. Sejujurnya ive never been happier. I am a blessed wife to nurul najmi. Selesai sudah majlis kedua2 belah pihak n now reality check.. Back to work. Mencari masa for each other. Caring for each other through our different schedules.

Hes now 400kms away from me. Jauh kan. Tapi tetap dekat di hati. :') walau pun sebenarnya rindu tu Allah je yg tahu. Each time i went back home n entered our room. Ada kain pelikat dia yg tersidai dgn kopiah.. That wud be the 1st thing saya akan cium. And sebab rindu. I kept his baju kotor yg belum berbasuh so tat i can smell him. Hehe. Gediknya. :p

The 1st week that i went to work. Semuanya berjemput n berhantar pergi kerja. Siap kalau oncall he wud drop by and kasi makanan. I miss that. I miss the everyday ritual of salam cium tangan sebelum pergi mana mana.. Selepas solat. Sebelum tidur. That is my routine. Sabarlah hati.

Subhanallah. Allah has given me the chance to feel all this. Terima kasih ya Rabb. Ini bahagia milikMu. Rasa ini milikMu. Semoga kami kekal dalam peliharaanMu. Berkasih kasihan kerana Mu. Semoga cinta kami kekal hingga ke Jannah. Semoga kami dikurnia zuriat yg soleh dan solehah yang akan mendoakan kami nanti sebagai pengikat kasih sayang kami.

Inilah janji Allah.. Ketenangan dan kebahagiaan selepas nikah. Takkan ditemui kalau couple2 je ok. Hehe
Janji Allah itu pasti. Terima kasih Tuhan atas bahagia ini.

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Married!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

I am now blissfully married. Berusia 10 hari perkahwinan kami. Hehe.

Moga Allah sahaja yang membalas segala doa dan all the gifts yang kalian hadiahkan pada kami. Setiap doa yang kalian titipkan.. Kami tadah dan sambut dengan Ameen di hati kami. Semoga Allah makbulkan doa doa itu.
Ameen

I still cant believe that i an a wife now! Takkan lupa saat akad nikah menjadi sah, 6 april 2013 jam 9.16pm, diakad oleh ayahanda sendiri. Alhamdulillah.

Indah sungguh aturan Allah. Ini takdir untuk kami. All the while iv been thinking dari kecik zaman main masak2 agaknya nnt dah besar kawen dgn siapa.. Now dah tau jawapannya..

I am a proud wife to dr nurul najmi mohd nyisak

A very humble young man. Simple je. Yang penting lelaki yang satu ini taatkan agamanya. Itu yg paling bermakna

Kerana lelaki ini adalah ketua saya . Ketua keluarga kecil kami.

Saat pertama kali pegang tangan lelaki ini.. Sungguh hati rasa berdebar2 sgt. Tangan keduanya sejuk mcm air batu. Hehe. All these while ive been wondering too, how does it feel like to be able to hold his hands..
Takkan lupa saat pertama kali tangan kami bersentuh tanpa alas, saat pertama saya tunduk kucup tangannya.. Tanda hormat seorang saya untuk seorang lelaki ajnabi dahulunya yang kini sah bergelar suami.
Sungguh ajaib rasa itu. Mungkinkah cinta yang dijanjikan Allah perlahan lahan meresap dalam hati setelah sah akad terpatri?

It feels like my heart being charged. N warmth fills up my soul. Thats how it feels like the first time i hold your hand. :)

Kalau dulu rasa resah sbb takut tersalah langkah.. The what ifs questions yang kerap kali muncul pantang waktu senggang tiba.. Now tiada lagi resah itu. Cuma tenang.

I admit mmg berdebar la to share a life together with a guy. Tapi kita niatkan semuanya atas nama ibadah. In shaa Allah. Allah telah mengatur semuanya.

Our nikah was attended by both families. Penuh jugak rumah kami. And my cloee friends. Alhamdulillah. Air mata menitik jugak saat ayahanda mohon izin untuk menikahkan saya dgn lelaki itu. Dan saat pertama kali mata kami bertembung pandang saat bacaan taklik.. All i could think.. Im his wife. Subhanallah :')

The reception was held at dewan. first time ever family kami adakan di dewan. Well sbbnya takut kat rumah crammed sgt. Jemputan abah mmg ramai sebab anak bongsu. Ehem. Hehe.

I loved the entrance part whereby kami berhenti untuk berselawat n after that lagu ruth sahanaya kaulah segalanya took placd n dewan was dimmed.. N my nieces n nephews jalan dulu, the boys carrying lanterns. n the girls of course jadi flower girls. Followed by my sisters n then only us walked down the red carpet. Holding him close n walking. It feels rare. Haha. Jakun tak.

Alhamdulillah it all went well. Cuma i admit tak sempat borak panjang dgn sahabat yg dtg. Harap mereka faham..

Cuma penat senyum n kena berlakon sikit2 for the video shoot. But alhamdulillah puas hati kerja dgn photographers; the same photographers masa majlis tunang so dah x kekok sgt nak senyum n pose. Malu dah kurang. N the guys who shoot for d video; cst production team. Mmg sempoi.. N my 2 pelamins n deco n makeup by rita collection. Pricey i admit but i love d end product.

Being a wife.. Sempat duduk almost a week in mom in laws house.. Learnt about him some more.

Haha

Our differences strike. I love drinking milo. Hari2 b4 kerja minum milo. So i made milo for him before dia pergi kerja. But he tanak minum. So merajuk. Hahaha.

Benda2 kecil yg saya belajar pasal suami. Dari adik2, mak mertua n ayah mertua. In shaa Allah will adapt slowly.

Kena belajar mcmana nak kejut suami sbb liat sgt bangun tido. Hahaha

But whatever it is. Im ready to face the challenge.its not honeymoon period sentiasa. life has its ups n downs. Lepas ni kami akan berjauhan demi kerjaya. Tapi inshaa Allah, Allah kkn ada. Kami akan dekat akhirnya. I wil also put in my transfer. Tak kisah dekat ke jauh. Tak kisah susah ke senang. Sihat atau sakit. Thru everything.. I want to go thru it all with him. Hanya dia satu di hati. Ameen. In shaa Allah


Sebenarnya kita tgh belajar bercinta2 lagi. Haha. Dulu pun panggil awk awk. Skrg pun kdang terlepas awk awk lagi. Hehe. Sungguh indah bercinta lepas nikah. Semoga Allah pupuk rasa cinta di hati kami. Sehingga kami ke syurga Mu nanti. Ameen. Its priceless to b able to kiss his hand everyday before sending him off to work. To be able to wake up n see him first thing in the morning. To be able to tell him i love u no matter when.
Ini harta milik Allah. Bahagia ini milik Allah. Sungguh terima kasih Ya Rabb.

Kurniakna kami kebaikan di dunia dan di akhirat.

Pictures as attached ;)

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Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
It's friday already. Subhanallah. Cepat sgt masa pergi. Now tinggal hari terakhir sebagai single lady.

Ya Allah andai takdir ini yg terbaik buat kami, Kau kuatkan lah keimanan kami melalui pernikahan ini.

Ya Allah, andai takdir ini takdir terbaik untuk kami dunia dan akhirat, satukan lah hati kami sehingga kami meraih syurga Mu

Ya Allah, andai dia lelaki terbaik untukku.. Tenangkan hati ku. Permudahkan majlis pernikahan kami.. Tenangkan hatinya sewaktu lafaz akad nanti.

Ya Allah, aku ingin syurgaMu. Andai pernikahan ini mampu mendekatkan aku kepada Mu. Tentu aku redha. Aku mohon rasa cinta buat suamiku bukan setahun dua, aku mohon rasa cinta seperti cintanya Khadijah terhadap Rasulullah SAW. Biarlah ini pernikahan pertama dan terakhir kami ya Allah.

Ya Allah, aku tahu dugaan dari Mu takkan putus mendatang kerana dugaan itu penguat iman. Aku mohon jangan kau renggangkan hati kami, satukan kami tika susah dan senang

Ya Allah, jadikanlah aku seorang isteri yg bakal menyenangkan hatinya, jadikanlah aku isteri yg sentiasa mendapat redha suami, jadikanlah aku yang terbaik untuknya selepas Kau dan Rasulullah.

Ya Allah, esok aku bakal dinikahkan oleh ayahanda ku. Aku mohon berkatilah dan berilah redha Mu. Aku mohon pernikahan ini membawa kami ke syurga Mu. Kurniakan lah kami sebuah keluarga sakinah.

Ameen

a very anxious bride to be.

Three

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

3 more days to go.Or should i say 2 and a half.

Untuk bakal suami, nurul najmi mohd nyisak

I know.. Kita tak pernah bercinta sangat mcm org lain.. And some say we move too fast? Okay maybe la kot its quite fast.

First time i saw u was in march 2011. I was in my 3rd posting that time. Never did i know i wud be meeting my future husband there. I wasnt aware of my feelings sgt. Only after we were in separate posting i noticed i wud be thinking of texting u but i dont have anything to say to u.. But i wasnt sure thus i leave evrything to Allah. Istikharah after istikharah. Hajat after hajat.
I could still rmmber the days when we did rounds together. When we inserted cvp together. When we did tapping together. Haha. But we were only friends. The usual lunch was normal. But i rmmbr sarah wong used to say this to me, 'chups, u mcm sesuai je ngan najmi'
But i said.. No way! Hehe

I could still remember masa raya puasa 2011, i already like u. So abah ada buat open house masa tu at janda baik n i so wanted u to come.. So i invited u. Surprisingly, u came!! Walaupun masa mula2 tu segan la nk tanya awk nk dtg ke tak.. Tp sebab tunggu awk x update pun i asked u.. Then u said will come after o&g rounds.. :) o was nervous masa tu tunggu awak sampai. Rasa happy2 sgt. Haha. And masa tu kaksu pun da tau i like u. So she started to kacau2 u that time. That was the first time u met my family.

If only i have the old texts between us.. That wud be priceless. And the feeling hit me after that. N i confessed to u october of 2011. After few months of trying to keep hold of it . Yeah i was the kind of girl who cant contain her feelings sgt. Haha. Sooo i blurted it out via viber. It took u 4 days to reply, and u said.. Please dont discard your feelings

After that there was nothing official pun. We just become closer. Texting more often. But rarely calls. Memang sgt jarang call and x pernah bergayut on phone. Mula2 dulu rasa weird sbb kenapa u never call. But then again after some time..i slowly try to understand u.

U said.. Tanak bercinta beriya before nikah.

I was speechless. Sbb tak pernah ada org yg sy kenal yg mcm awak ni. U were different. in every way thats possible. U were different.
From the early days that we met.. U always ajak puasa together.. Even the 1st time we ever 'keluar' together, just the 2 of us pun masa nak berbuka puasa... I was so nervous. Didnt know how to react depan awak. Taktau nk panggil awak ape cz we used to ' aku kau' then nameless for a while.. Haha. Till we decide on awk n org. But i do call u yang sometimes. N u did call me yang beberapa kali :p sooo unromantic! Hehe

We went thru the chaos of htar together. I cried when i was about to leave htar. I was scared of losing you. I was scared of uncertainties. I cried so hard that night n that was the night u opened up to me. N slowly i built back my confidence that if it was meant to be, eventually Allah will pave the way for us.

I know. Ada orang pernah tanya saya why i stayed with u during the period of uncertainty. I was sad that time tp i believed that dari mula whn i was scared to fall for u, i prayed to Him to show the way and the feelings never subside. Always stay within me.

I found my peace in you. I found my home in you. Each time i looked at a happy couple, i silently pray to Allah, please Allah let me have a happyfamily with u. I dont want to love u that much too. I want to love u for the sake of Allah. :')

Its funny how life spins. I know u never propose to me properly. We just go on as what the family wishes. Im still scared at this point sebenarnya but i believe Allah is with us. DIA maha tahu segalanya. When the road is open up for us, pasti ada hikmah yg tersembunyi di sebaliknya.

Now we are this close to being in a halal relationship
All thse while weve been in haram relationship i know. Sbb tu awak pun x nak kita ckp2 phone sgt. Tanak selalu jumpa especially lepas tunang. Sebab tu jugak saya respect awak. For a guy who knows his batas2 agama n never let Allah slips away from him, in shaaAllah saya yakin dan percaya im on the right path..

Doa saya, semoga Allah tenangkan hati kita berdua, semoga Allah pupuk rasa cinta antara kita setelah sah lafaz akad nanti. Semoga Allah anugerahkan kita zuriat penyambung kasih dan pembela agama. Ameen. Semoga Allah anugerahkan syurga dunia dan akhirat buat kita. Semoga susah senang kita, kita hadapi sama sama. Semoga kita takkan termakan hasutan syaitan. Semoga apa pun dugaan kita, biarlah kita bersama.

I know im not perfect. U could find a better person than me. But ive always loved u. I dont say it often to u. Pernah 2 kali ke 3 kali je sbb segan nak ckp cmtu. I hope i could be a good wife to u. Menjadi kekuatan tika lemah. Menjadi penyembuh ketika duka. Menjadi penawar segalanya. Menjadi sahabat, isteri, pelengkap jiwa. Bimbinglah saya menuju syurga. In shaa Allah i wud always take care of myself, the way i walk, the way i talk, the way i dress cz it will all come back to u as a husband later.

Biarlah saat pertama kali tangan kita bersentuh, saat selepas akad nikah untuk salaman pertama seorang saya kepada awak. Jujur i always wonder how does it feel to be able to hold your hands. *sebab jari awak cantik, slaps myself* hehe. I guess i would know in 3 days time.

Untuk kesekian kalinya .

Semoga Allah redha akan kasih seorang saya kepada seorang awak. Semoga Allah pupuk cinta di hati seorang awak dan saya selepas sah akad. Semoga ada bahagia untuk seorang saya dan seorang awak, bersama sama sehingga ke Jannah. Biarlah saya menjadi bidadari di syurga yang memegang payung emas di sana menanti seorang awak. Hanya seorang awak di hati seorang saya.
Setelah Allah, Rasul S.AW dan ibu bapa. Hanya seorang awak. Tiada lain.

Selamat datang, bakal suami.

Saya kasih kan seorang awak. Kerana Allah