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sape tahu macamane nak buat entry password protecteddd??

cepat2, sape tahuuuu?

boleh aja saye takkkk?

:)

this is so random.

i am 5 months away from my professional 3 exams.

but i just kinda started my engine

untuk revise sume benda balik

i choose ortho untuk start. kemudian mungkin will do medicine pulak

i hope memory will do me a huge favor.

sila jangan cepat lupa!!!

doakan saye ye kawan2.

weekends are meant for me to study.

tapi.... kalau weekends pun study,

bila masa nak have a life?

u get what i mean?

bila masa nak pegi shopping shopping?

bile nak catch up the new movies?

bile nak nyanyi2 dlm red box?

uhuh. i think sekarang kena tolak tepiii semua benda2 itu

ok maybe not completely.

:)

those things are so tempting compared to

mengadap buku, sambil tahan mata jangan mengantuk

huhu. and selalunye when weekends are getting near

mesti hati rasa melonjak-lonjak either nak balik ke kampung halaman

or just spend the days at my sister's

pick one, i have 5 sisters yang berdekatan. but my pick will most prolly be at the twin's

(sebab sekarang sepet dah tumbuh gigi, and i am so thrilled. pasni boleh main giget2 ngan die. teheee :P)

sometimes i couldnt help but wonder

why did i choose this field to be my future.

oh well, bukan menidakkan takdir.

i know this is fate. takdir. qada' n qadar.

tapi i just cant help it. but to ponder for a while

i have chosen a difficult path to live. the one path yang akan eventually lead to all kind of sacrifices.

i know i have to sacrifice my time. my family. tsk tsk

imagine nanti i'll be so buys working in the hospitals looking out for patients

but family sendiri pun tak sempat nak jaga. sedih kan? :(

but i hope hope and pray pray pray some more that it wont be that bad.

i kinda freaked out bila fikirkan tanggungjawab yang besar yang menanti di depan.

it scares me.

to held up that high expectations from people around u once you've graduated.

and no, i am nothing more special than all of you.

and yes, i kinda know that men out there

selalunye jarang yang prefer to have a wife who works as a doctor, no?

hahahaha. okay dont get offensive.

just from my random observation.

bila tanya lelaki, u nak wife u keja ape?

most of them akan jawab cikgu. betulll tak??

hehehe

i used to think a lot, dah tu sape yang nak kawen ngan aku? hahaha

but in the end, when u pushed someone away. as hard as u tried. if it's meant to be, it will stick with u no matter what. :) kan?

and now i am happy. alhamdulillah :)

happy because i think i've changed in some ways to be a better person.

alhamdulillah.

happy because i've grown closer to my family.

especially with my sister. dulu pun, memang we're a bunch of sisters yang sgt close

now semua benda pun i will share. every minute details. tak kisah lah pasal study ke.

pasal sale kat mana-mana ke. pasal nak shopping bile ke. and of course pasal the so called personal life of mine. teheee.

okay. dah tak tahu nak tulis ape.

malas dah sebenarnye.

but thank u sume orang sebab buat saya heppi sekarang

u know who u are. terima kasih.

nak nama kan satu2, saya tak mampu. because there are too many in the list.

terima kasih. semoga Allah membalas jasa baik kalian :)

p/s : awk jangan lari dari saya ok? jgn hilang dari saya. boleh??

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lagu ini sangat sweet oh. like sweet sweet sweet.

haishhh :')

oops!

officially did something waaaaaayyyyyy out of mind semalam.

i was like hyperventilating, with cold feets and nauseous after i hit the 'send' button

hahaha

naseb baik tiada sape2 tgk muka aku mase tuh

serious mcm hulk hogan, tapi versi kurus :p

just for the record, i never did something like this

which require a lot of gutsss (which i dont have)

and i hope, last nite was the last ever...

hahaha

thank u faradilla and azliyana

sebab sanggup layan kerenah saya for 3 hours

i know dorang mcm geram gileeeee kat i coz i was so scared :p

hahahaha

neways, it was done.

dan tidak boleh direversekan lagi.

hahaha

cuma saya rasa mahu menyorok dalam gua.

at least for a year. boleh? :P

tapi dlm gua ade coverage broadband x????

entry panjang

okay. sudah lama tidak tulis blog.

heh. lame la sgt. citt :P

neways, i was busy with exams haritu

u know, the exams yg combine 2 postings together

which almost made me crazyy.

or mungkin telah jadi gila sekejap. for a brief period of time.

huuu

serious mase nak exam hari tu

rase mcm urghhhhh~ !^&^%@**)

mule la keluar ayat2 seperti

menyesalnyeee tak study awal2. ok janji lepas ini nak berubah. takmo main2 lagi, takmo kacau org lagi. takmo takmo. nak duduk diam2 je blaja sampai jadi pandai.

i sat for obstetrics & gynaecology theory paper.

plus paediatrics and adolescent medicine, paper theory and also clinical.

o&g was not easy, tough juga la. uhuh

but paedsss was sooooo tough. that i almost cry mase jawab soalan tuh.

huhuh

and the night before exam clinical tu. i actually cried for real.

serious beremosi sungguh aku mase tuh. wtf. malu malu =_+

sume sebab emosi tak tau nak bace ape, tak dpt predict case ape nak dpt esoknye.

and plus, the patients in the ward sume hardcore bebeh. huhuh T__T

terus call mak nanges2 ckp takotttt.

neways, alhamdulillah berjaya jugak withstand the pressure

and here i am, masih hidup, masih bernafas. masih mampu main fesbuk and tulis belog.

hahah. ehh betul la, i tak tipu, i da insaf nii :)

but, results masih tak tahu ok.

doakan saya lulus please? oh pretty please.

so sebab geram ngan exam punye pasal.

i spent the rest of my free days sebelum start posting baru (which starts today. huh)

dengan berlibur bersama rakan2, family kesayangan and... haha. saspen x? :P

after exam clinical tamat, went to cineleisure or watever name baru die skarang.

and watched papadom. nice one i think! well, for the fact that farid kamil ade dlm tu cukup la untuk menjamu mata pada hari itu. hehe. :P

the best part sebab gelak tengok boria. hehe. (it reminded me of the days mase form one, we had a boria competition ape ntah for merdeka. hehe.)

then friday, went to putra world trade centre sebab ade perhimpunan agong umno kan.

ok sebelum ade yang emosi, let me state that i am clearly a neutral person. NOT! haha

takde la, i went there with my sisters n mummy. sebab mahu shopping ok!

shopping sgt hebat super duper best. habis kopak duet raye. hukhuk T__T

nak raye lagiiiii!

i bought 2 dresses (dress labuh ok, like the one yg cover smp kaki punye. hehe)

and 2 dresses yang smp lutut. ok tahniah. :D

haha,

and sebab kaksu merajuk haritu, beli 1 top for kaksu gak.baju die lagi mahal dari i punye. demm.

kemudian pergi ariani nganga2 tengok tudung. heeee

last2 skali beli anak tudung jek. :p

then saturday, went out with kaksu, kakde, dina, aleesh n fahim

tengok movie cloudy with the chance of meatballs. comell weh.

i sat next to paim, and then tetibe mase middle of movie tu,

die tanye ; movie ni dah start ke? :P

haha

memang dasar budak hingusan kan die ni. seb baik ensem and i sayang :)

kemudian cari crocs, tapi tak de yang cantik. stock sume dah burok2. hmmmph

marahh ni.

then sunday pulak.

went to midvalley.minum pagi at warong ape ntah yg dekat ngan exit komuter tu kan.

then jalan2 taktau nak buat ape. fyi, i am an indecisive person. i hate situation yang kene ade prompt decision. but yes, i have to deal with that. later can aa? :P

so we decided to watch a movie.

and picked the private life of pippa lee. sebab ade keanu reaves.

and ade serena gossip girl tu.

buttttt, turns out movie tu sgt boringgggg!!!

demmyu. habis duit i. (eh sorry, bukan duit i.heh)

we were like dumbfounded and laughing at ourselves sebab both of us were bored. i know that. awk jgn tipuu ok! heee

and he was asking betul ke movie ni cite pippa lee? sebab sgt bowinkkk. urghhh.

and then teman shopping baju kemeja and seluar.

then had sushi king.yummy yummy. sedappp nyeee. auwwww

kemudian shopping lagi.

persuaded him to buy a necktie kaler purple. gagal di situ. uhuh T_T

takpe takpe, i'll definitely make him buy that one day.

kempunan ok nak tgk awk pakai tie kaler purple. tsk :"(

then made our way home at around 8pm

sampai kolej.

tanam azam baru lagi sekali.

kemudian tido.

haha.

okay busuk kan.

kennot la like this.

seriously, saye sudah mahu berubah jadi budak rajin.

sape nak tolong volunteer marah sy bile sy malas??

mahuu?

ini gambar post-exam syndrome. asek nak amik gmbr jek kat depan cermin. padahal dulu kat skolah tak berani nak pandang cermin lame2 takut ade 'something' staring at u kan. tsk. see, how time changes us? :D haha

congratulations you :)

okay

i was studying tadi

walaupun sedikit ngantok. (okay tipu, bukan sikit, tapi banyaaakkk.)

haha

blame it all on the food i ate.

yeah, percayalah.

i've gained my appetite back. yummy-licious!!! :)

and i was almost asleep

or maybe sudah terawang2 sedikit.

until a phone call wakes me up.

:)

tiba tiba mata rasa terbukak luas

mcm ada lidi tahan kat kelopak mata

sampai tak boleh nak kelip kelip dah. (exaggerate sikit)

hehe

congratulationsssssss!!

i am so darn proud of you!

see, i've told ya that you'll be amazing.

and yes, i am not even one bit surprised when you told me that

well because i kinda predicted that you'll get in anyway.

anyhooo, i am freaking proud and freaking happy

(taktahu kenapa la terlebih gembira pulak ni. hikhik)

and yes, i know you are freaking happy too

so yes.

a big warm congratulations from me.

may everything goes well as planned.

insyaallah.

so yes.

nanti lapor diri.

get in there, and be yourself.

you'll be great. :)

okay semua. mari sambung study.

study lah.sebuk je thrill orang lain berjaya.

diri sendiri pun tak lepas lagi :P

heeee

when i dreamed of you.

sudah 2 malam berturut2

saya mimpikan kamu.

tidur petang pun

kamu datang dalam mimpi

tidur pagi2 lepas subuh pun kamu dtg lagi.

ish.

nak kate tak basuh kaki before tido, siap scrub lagi

(okay2, tipu je! :P)

thanks for coming in my dreams nonetheless.

:)

p/s: malam ni datang lah lagi. hehe. oops! :-)

mood corny.

:) meh nyanyi meh

Layang-layang terbang melayang
Terbang melayang di tengah padang
Ingin aku hiburkan, hiburkan hatimu sayang
Kalau ikut rasa hati, ingin aku bawa pulang

Gendang gendut bunyinya gendang
Di hari ini kita berdendang
Ingin aku sampaikan, salam penuh kasih sayang
Mesra ikatan di hati akan ku kenang

Kalau ada sawah bendang
Boleh lah menuai padi
Kalau ada umur panjang
Boleh kita jumpa lagi

da da di di du di da da di

terima kasih daun keladi
da da di di du di da da di
aku sudah jatuh hati

(eh ok, takde niat nak boldkan.hahahaha)

ps: sorry lah, ini lah jadinya bila exam nak dekat. and marilah kita ber da di du.watever la. hehe. ni lagu koir ssp ni. jangan main main haaa.. hehe :D

orang tgh sibuk tapi nak update blog jugak.

okay, quick update from me.

quick quick!

sorry i've been reallll busy

bukan tipu2 ok.

memang sibuk la skrg, byk sgt kerja tak siap2 lagi

plus exams makin hampir

finals juga makin dekat

huuuu.please doakan i jadi rajin wahai semua manusia

lately malassssss sangat

rasa mcm nak berlingkar mcm ular dlm selimut jek. T___T

nways, raya was a great one this year alhamdulillah

wpun wpun ada rasa sedikit kosong. :p

okay abaikan!!!!

had fun with families, and friends of course

tahun ini ramai kawan2 dtg beraye

eceh eceh (sbnrnye dorang dtg pn sbb ade wedding sue :P

one of my childhood friend

pn norsuriana fatiha hussin is now officially married

kepada jejaka pilihan hatinya

Alhamdulillah :")

terasa sedikit touching bila tengok dia kawen

especially masa nikah

sebab sebab.. kenal die dari kecik, u know

masa darjah 1 kuning. kite semua kecik2 lagi, pendek pulak tuh. hehe

so rasa gembira sangat, sedih, terharu

semua lah-the feeling sgt indescribable.

tsk.

we've shared so many moments together before.

dari sekolah rendah, smpai same2 masuk seri puteri.

kemudian saya pergi pasum ,die rpkj kat um

kolej pun sama lagi

lama kitorang sama2

cuma sekarang sudah jarang update

masing2 sudah jauh, busy segala

but i wish her all the best.

selamat mengharungi hidup sebagai seorang isteri

semoga bahagia kekal hingga akhir hayat. amin :)

okay, mama....i nak kawen jugak!!!
haha. (okay tipu jek!.hehe)

ps : raya tahun ni best sebab masih dpt collection yg byk for duit raye.:)

pps: tengok lah gmbr2 di bawah. nak tgk byk2, pergi tgk kat fb la! malas laaa nk upload. okay jumpe lagi semua... taaaaaa~

me with glace. gmbr utk siang hari tak byk dlm my cam, batt habis :P soooo.sile pergi fb kalau nak tgk ok? :D

me with surani, amy. ini semua kawan sekolah rendah tuanku fatimah. ok pengantin lelaki terkecuali lah. hehe

my pretty friend, kini isteri orang. congrats suuueeee :)

okay pulak dah. ni gmbr raye pertama. saya pegang baby hariz. matching kan kami? hehe

ini saya dengan baby fikril. saya rindu dia ohhhh!

with mama kesayangan hati.

with daddy kesayangan hati juga.

sekian.