this is so random.

i am 5 months away from my professional 3 exams.

but i just kinda started my engine

untuk revise sume benda balik

i choose ortho untuk start. kemudian mungkin will do medicine pulak

i hope memory will do me a huge favor.

sila jangan cepat lupa!!!

doakan saye ye kawan2.

weekends are meant for me to study.

tapi.... kalau weekends pun study,

bila masa nak have a life?

u get what i mean?

bila masa nak pegi shopping shopping?

bile nak catch up the new movies?

bile nak nyanyi2 dlm red box?

uhuh. i think sekarang kena tolak tepiii semua benda2 itu

ok maybe not completely.

:)

those things are so tempting compared to

mengadap buku, sambil tahan mata jangan mengantuk

huhu. and selalunye when weekends are getting near

mesti hati rasa melonjak-lonjak either nak balik ke kampung halaman

or just spend the days at my sister's

pick one, i have 5 sisters yang berdekatan. but my pick will most prolly be at the twin's

(sebab sekarang sepet dah tumbuh gigi, and i am so thrilled. pasni boleh main giget2 ngan die. teheee :P)

sometimes i couldnt help but wonder

why did i choose this field to be my future.

oh well, bukan menidakkan takdir.

i know this is fate. takdir. qada' n qadar.

tapi i just cant help it. but to ponder for a while

i have chosen a difficult path to live. the one path yang akan eventually lead to all kind of sacrifices.

i know i have to sacrifice my time. my family. tsk tsk

imagine nanti i'll be so buys working in the hospitals looking out for patients

but family sendiri pun tak sempat nak jaga. sedih kan? :(

but i hope hope and pray pray pray some more that it wont be that bad.

i kinda freaked out bila fikirkan tanggungjawab yang besar yang menanti di depan.

it scares me.

to held up that high expectations from people around u once you've graduated.

and no, i am nothing more special than all of you.

and yes, i kinda know that men out there

selalunye jarang yang prefer to have a wife who works as a doctor, no?

hahahaha. okay dont get offensive.

just from my random observation.

bila tanya lelaki, u nak wife u keja ape?

most of them akan jawab cikgu. betulll tak??

hehehe

i used to think a lot, dah tu sape yang nak kawen ngan aku? hahaha

but in the end, when u pushed someone away. as hard as u tried. if it's meant to be, it will stick with u no matter what. :) kan?

and now i am happy. alhamdulillah :)

happy because i think i've changed in some ways to be a better person.

alhamdulillah.

happy because i've grown closer to my family.

especially with my sister. dulu pun, memang we're a bunch of sisters yang sgt close

now semua benda pun i will share. every minute details. tak kisah lah pasal study ke.

pasal sale kat mana-mana ke. pasal nak shopping bile ke. and of course pasal the so called personal life of mine. teheee.

okay. dah tak tahu nak tulis ape.

malas dah sebenarnye.

but thank u sume orang sebab buat saya heppi sekarang

u know who u are. terima kasih.

nak nama kan satu2, saya tak mampu. because there are too many in the list.

terima kasih. semoga Allah membalas jasa baik kalian :)

p/s : awk jangan lari dari saya ok? jgn hilang dari saya. boleh??