Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
Alhamdulillah, my final exam sudah habis semalam. lega sekejap sebab dah tak larat otak ni nak working extra hours ;p tapi result belum dapat lagi
sekarang berdebar2 sgt222 untuk result on friday.
semoga usaha kami semua diberkati, dan semoga kami semua lulus cemerlang.AMIN
sekarang mixed emotions dah rasa. sedih sebab bila fikir balik, we are sooo coming towards the end of our undergrad study. 5 years kami sama2, mcm masa kat sekolah dulu la, 5 tahun. pejam celik pejam celik, pejam tak celik2, it has been 5 years. kira bila jumpa balik staffs yang kerja kat shah alam dulu sebab diorang kena jaga our exams, ada yang dah beranak dua dah. ngeee~ lepas ni tak tahu lah bila akan dapat jumpa semua, mesti terpisah jauh2. semua mintak kerja kat hometown masing *saya je tak;p*
anyhow, its been a memorable 5 years of journey for all of us. semua susah payah kami, semua momen2 yang indah, akan menjadi kenangan sampai akhir hayat. *nanti buat special entry abt our 5 years of journey lah*
professional III exams, it is a continuation of our Professional I exam-masa tahun satu dulu, and Professional II exam-masa tahun dua dulu.. it's a combination of everything that we learned. dari tahun satu sampai tahun lima, anything under the sun can come out in the questions. cuak tak dgr? hehehe. oh jangan salah faham, bukan bermaksud sepanjang tahun 3 to tahun 5 tu we dont have exams yeee. we have a lot of it. every 2 months, we would have end of posting exams. urghhh.
anyway, theory paper started on 20th april. hari pertama exam, memang nervousss sgt. sebab essay kot. the 2nd day of theory sgt memenatkan otak hokayyy~ we have to answer 120 questions yang soalan die panjang gileeee, especially from medicine posting. dah la tu, u have to like change yr brain punye memory every minute sebab the questions compiled semua field. [medicine, psychiatry, paediatrics in one paper] and lagi [surgery, obs and gynae, orthopaedics] in one paper. tangan pulak lenguhhh gila sebab kena hitamkan the OMR papers, sampai 500 bulat2 kena hitamkan okayy~ but luckily the answer it's either False or True, so F or T, maka it equals to FT. *err ade kaitan? ;p*
and the last day for theory tuu, MME exam. susah hokayy~ keluar balik anatomy yang belajar masa zaman jahiliah tahun satu dulu. ade kaki manusia setepek die letak kat meja exam. hoho. kemudian microbiology dia bagi microscope segala, specimen patho pulak keluar colorectal cancer. pastu ada chest X Ray, pastu keluar instrument iaitu chest tube. -__-
and debaran paling hebat... mestilah masa clinical exams. clinical as in, we will be brought to a patient, and we have to ask all the history of the patients, construct it, make it as nice as possible, and present it to the group of examiners.. and kena check patient tu, and make our diagnosis. kena support our own diagnosis, justify kenapa we choose that diagnosis. kemudian make an outline of management. and kemudian selamat menjawab soalan2 bernas yang akan keluar dari mulut examiners laaa.. -oh, and that is known as long case
next, setelah selesai long case, ada lagi 3 short cases. we will be brought to anyyy patients. and kena terus examine di hadapan mereka, tak dibenarkan untuk tanya apa2 pun kat patient. we just have to examine, present the findings and postulate a diagnosis.
and yesterday was my turn, honestly tak pernah rasa anxious mcm ni. i mean like, for few days before nak exam clinical tu, my heart beat sudah laju gileeee, sampai rasa mcm nak pengsan. kaki pulak rasa sejuk gileee je. pastu pulak, bila dengar lagu SEMESTA by faiza tahir, sure konpem rasa nak nanges. hoho. psycho kan? tengok gmbr family, rasa sebak jeee. haishh. mcm2 feelings laa. sebab cuakkk sgt hokayy~ being the youngest in the family, i know setinggi mana harapan mak and abah towards me, although they never pushed me or anything. and i want to make em proud of me. the same goes to my sisters. and i have to set a good example for my nieces and nephews to follow. since, memang ada my nieces sekarang yang akan cakap they wanted to be like me. hehehe
the feelings were so intense, muka memang muka pressure gila sampai my housemate ckp takut nak tegur saya one day prior to hari exam. hehe. malam exam tu pulak, memang serious berdebarrr je, and dah start rasa pasrah, huhu. malam tu i cant sleep. dok golek2 atas katil at 1am, then at 2.30am terjaga.. at 3am bangun lagik. at 4 am terjaga lagik. last skali at 430 am terus amik buku and baca. -__-
pastu siap psycho gila sampai termuntahh. adehhh, i've never been like that previously, not ever. huhu. siap masa nak keluar rumah pukul 715 tu, rasa macam nak nanges. mata dah bergenang2. -__-
and kami the first batch yang amik exams tuu, so macam orang hari kedua and ketiga depended on us untuk tau siapa examiners, what kind of questions mereka tanya, patients mcmane yang keluar exam tu. so pukul 930am, i was brought to see the patient, i got a PAEDIATRIC case hokayy~ dalam hati doa banyak2 sebab cuak with paeds. *note: paediatrics is a tough subject. tapi sebenarnye semua pun tough, haha*
luckily, the patient [ a 4year old malay girl] baik jeee. with her mom. the patient ada asthma. tarik nafas legaaaa~ one hour later, was brought to the examiners room. ada 4 orang hokayyy~ Dr Wan Jazilah ( head of dept for paeds in Hosp Selayang), Prof Hashim (our O&G lecturer), Dr Freda (endocrinologist in HKL) and Prof Fauzi (the Dean of UIA ). so overall i think it went well because rasanya at the end of it, Dr Wan Jazilah mcm cakap very good. haha. *ke perasan?*
and for the short cases, my group of examiners - Assoc Prof Dr Tengku (respiratory physician merangkap our lecturer), Dr Roslan (O&G specialist of Hosp Selayang), Dato Razak (Ortho specialist), Dr Foo( neonatologist of Hosp Sg Buloh)..
baca doa byk2, selawat... and 1st case- case ibu mengandung. Dr Roslan as a major, patient complained of lower abdominal pain, please examine the patient.
so, i acted cool, amik hand sanitizer, kemudian introduce, ask permission and proceed.
questions asked: present yr findings, how to time the contractions, how to monitor fetus, what would you like to do, what is your differential diagnosis.
2nd case- Orthopaedicsss!! (damn, memang ortho sgt tak bersedia lah.demmit)
a young man presented with history of sports injury, please examine the knee-Dato' Razak as a major.
menggelabah hokayy~ padan muka diri sendiri -__-
but i wasss sooo lucky sebab dato razak helped me all the way until i made a diagnosis. terima kasih dato'. u're soo cool :D ngee~ oh plus, patient tu hemsemmm okay ;p hahaha
3rd case- Medicine
Dr Tengku as a major, please examine the cardiovascular. selak2 je baju pakcik tu, ada la scar from previous surgery, midline sternotomy scar.
pastu pulse die in atrial fibrillation
sekali dengar2, ada prosthetic click
urghh. sumpah tak penah dgr bunyik tu sebelum ni, 1st tyme dgr masa final exams yoo. ~
so my diagnosis patient had undergone a prosthetic valve replacement
and kemudian habis. Dr Tengku cakap, okay arifah, u can go now.
me: huh. habis dah? can go?
dr Tengku: yes u can go
me: really i can go?
all the examiners smile and gelakkan saya.
apesal la bongek aku ni masa tuh 0_0.
Alhamdulillah, Allah permudahkan untuk saya. Sujud syukur pada-Mu ya Allah. and received good news, semua yang exam semalam lulus for the clinical part. *sebak*
so now, waiting for the overall result. sebab our exams ni, campur the theory+clinical. dua2 part kena lulus, if one part fail, then terus fail walaupun the other part tu kita cemerlang gila.
please pray for us. im so close of my dreams, that i feel goosebumps all over me.
harapnya lulus. AMIN.
