webcam.

warning : post ini mengandungi unsur2 perasan comel.
jika tak tahan, sila click pada pangkah warna merah kat bucu kanan atas sekali.
sudah?

inilah akibatnya bila
anak2 buah dah pandai bergambar (bukan i aja ok.haha)
and sebuk suro amik gambar dorang je
ewah ewah banyak comel muka korang due orang.
i pun nak masuk gak ok!
haha =.=

so this was taken di pagi yang hening hari sabtu
before we hit off the mall untuk shopping
erks~tapi mcm tak percaye lah i didnt buy anything!!
serious weh tak tipu!
gile kentang kagum dengan diri sendiri. clap clap clap~
:)
tapi sampai kat polo lelaki
teruja gile tengok tshirt lelaki2
handsome gile!! urghhhh~
tangan rasa gatal nak beli
pastu tunduk malu. lupa pulak takde sape2 untuk diberi.
haha.

i helped my sister beli baju untuk budak2
mahal ok baju budak2 ni.
i dah pesan kat my sister.
jaga baju2 tu elok2
pakai cermat2, make sure semua basuh pakai tangan aje.
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sebab....
i nak simpan baju tu untuk anak2 i pulak nanti!
haha. jimat duit kan?
kire ok la, anak buah ade 14.
variety baju anak i nanti.
but maybe baju tu reput dulu.
(eh eh termasuk mode gatal nak ade anak pulak dah! haha T.T)

nways, malas la nak type
ini kanak kanak kecil
bernama hurin ariana and aleesya farhah
bersama aunty mereka yang comel. haha. (muntah ijau sekarang!)
i know i dah janji nak letak gmbr new member of the family
tp sory la tak bwk cable camera
tunggu yek!

background biru...
semaillllll :)

kanak-kanak manja. best jadi budak2 kan?

hurin loves me loves aleesya. vice versa.

muka menahan lapar dan dahaga. haha.

p/s: it's been 3 months. and alhamdulillah, i am still here,still breathing, still alive. looks like i'm a strong girl after all .though at times it still hurts, but lucky me i've got great friends, family and of course..someone close who's able to make me smile each day. thank u for being a great person. lucky me to get to know u. :)

pps: tapi kadang2 bila lalu some places, ive got cold feet and flashbacks of the old memories. aneh.and rasa mcm ingin kembali ke minggu lalu. alahai. i should have been stronger, i know.

.ku menunggu.

tiba-tiba
terlayan balik lagu siti zaman tok kadok dulu
zaman-zaman sebelum masuk asasi.
demm
=.="
ni semua salah astro aritu
konon sempena merdeka buat channel 188
dah la semalaman i tido lambat layan minah kaya tu nyanyi
demm.
hahahahahaha ( mari gelak ramai2)
tapi serious, masuk dlm keta jek.
buka lagu ini : ku menunggu, pejam matamu.
tiba-tiba rasa.
mata berkaca-kaca.
merah mata i.

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bukan nanges ok.
contact lense i dah expired, tp still tak cukup duit nak beli lens baru.
cian. kan?
huh T.T

p/s : i dah dapat baby boy baru. yang ke-4. eh salah. anak buah ke-14 ok! teheee. i pon mcm tak caye dah 14 orang. siap buat head count balik. rupe-rupenye betul lah. teheee.
will upload the pic soooon.! welcome to the greaaaatt family my lil baby nephew. iloveulots.all of u even sometimes u guys just buat aunty yang sorang nih rasa nak pengsan.huh. :)

a dream too real.

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had a dream.
where in that dream
i saw someone from my past.
in that dream
we were close.
almost as close as we used to be.
and i felt it was almost good.
if not good enough.

we talked.
we laughed.
made some silly jokes.
and it all seemed so real.
and we even had a meal together.
so yes, it all seemed too real.

if all these while i've been wondering
about how's life is treating that person.
and now i know
from my dream
i could see that you're doing well enough.
and yes. i could see you're happy.
so that is all i need to know.

and i am in a way glad, and happy for u too.
that you're now climbing up stairs
to wherever your future takes u to.

and when i woke up from my deep sleep.
you are nowhere to be seen.
was it real? or was it just a dream.
cause i'd swear i could see you smiling.
but then i know.
it never was a real thing anyway.

but i'd still smile
cause i know that
we've chosen the right thing to do.
that we've matured a lil bit.
that both of us. is now seeking for our happiness in our very different way.

so yes.
i'm glad u found your happiness.
even if that does not include me in the picture.
thank u for coming in my dream.
:")

people wouldnt have approved me
of writing this perhaps.
but i would still write it.
after all, it was just a dream (or was it real)
that comes once in a blue moon right?


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campur-campur

lama tak menulis.
sudah ada yang rindukan sy?
oh come on, tak baik tipu tauu.
ngaku jek la :p
teheee.
(shut up la, perasan je budak ni.teheee :p)

nways.
hari ni baru sudah ward round dgn dato rkr.
teheee.
cuak ok! doink betul.
serious sume orang punye muka pn gelabah gile
bile nampak die dtg.

including saye la of course! :p
been having butterflies and dragonflies skali in my tummy since last night.
first time berjaya lawan mata, and prepare case history.
kalau tak, memang konpem tido awal.
penat wohh.

tadi macam menggeletar kepala lutut sepanjang 2 jam.
tsk. dah la die suke buat eye contact. lalalalala
malu la i die pandang mata i lame2. :p
habis semua org kene marah.
hehe.
standard la kan, bukan la namenye rkr kalau tak marah ;p
teheee.

nways, kalau pikir2kan balik
mesti benda2 ni akan jadi one of the things yang
bile kite dah besar nanti (tak cukup besar lagi k? hehe)
mase tu maybe ade yang da jadi specialist. nak jadi consultant.
and maybe mase tu when we look at the medical students.
mesti rasa macam.
god, selekeh dorang ni.
and i was like that once.
smpai rasa nak terkucil kene marah ngan dato'.
hehe.
:)
(terima kasih dato', kerana buat hidup kami lebih colourful dengan setiap kata-kata anda)
erks.. baik kan i ni? haha.

nak cite pasal balik umah.
tapiiii...
malas nak type!
so, tak payah la eyh?
hehe.
but i am getting meself a new nephew
insyaallah, somewhere around this week.
:)) (jealous kan dengan saya ni? :P)

hari tu masa kelas ppd.
best wohh.
haha. first time weh class penuh T.T
tu pun sebab class ngan deputy dean :p
ermm.
this is the lesson learnt mase tuh :

avoid these three things :
1) comfort zone
2) learned helpnessness
3)path of least resistance.

cause u will end up failing in life.
so mari kita keluar dr comfort zone skarang!!!
yeah.
and i'm gonna embrace my future with a big smile on my face.
tak keasah lah i suke ke tak suke ke. teheeee
cheerio everyone :)