goodbye faith

a late entry. sebab i find it very hard to update via phone.
dont know why.

okay.
i was about to narrate about my final goodbye to faizal tahir :)
its not a big thing actually.
but to me, personally... it is a big thing
this does not comes out of sudden.
memang dah lama ada niat. tapi certain people asked me to at least wait for his solo concert
which happened on the 1st july. KL Live centre.
manusia berpegang pada janji kan :) so am i :)

personally. that night it wasnt the best coming out from faizal.
no gimmick. just him. :)
and his health condition does not permit him to perform that well.
but it was good. :) to me, it brings me back to those days when i first started
who would have thought that years could pass by so fast.
just like in a blnk of an eye.

it was a special night cause my favorite artiste performed,. with his great bandmates.
and my sisters were all there. well except kak asmak. and sue.
and my close friends from klang also participated.
and my better half was there with me :)
i am the happiest girl alive :)

remembering back. Faizal Tahir was not just FT,
he is always be remembered, as someone who is kind enough to pray for my success. i will never forget the day he prayed for my final exam. i was still touched when i read the doa. and i was a stranger to him at that time. but he prayed anyway :')
he is always gonna be the first and the last artiste that i sent off to the airport.
it happened in kota bharu kelantan.
and that was the first time i managed to 'talk' to him in person.  and saw him being him; loosened up.
:')
and he is always gonna be the one who nags a lot at me. and melatah a lot., hehe
and of course, he will always be the one who leads me to the rockensteiners family. and we bonded and built an ukhwah. kerana Allah. semoga Allah merestui

never again will i experence those moments.
the moment when he ignored me totally when he was on stage in Kota Bharu and even ran away when i tried to snap a picture with me, and said to me"eh awk siapa, tak kenal" . hehe
never again will i 'menggigil' after seeing him in person.
never again will i drive all the way to penang only to arrive in the dawn. and heard hanyut live for the first time at such hour. and saw them jagged face - too tired, and he was wearing a bathrobe. hehe.
those were the days
never again will i embarass myself by playing like a lil kid at the kids pool only to realize that the star is being interviewed at the lobby and he was looking straight at us. darn :P
never again will i be called as the royale FT frontliner,
and the name itself was not made up. it happened in hard rock penang- rock for the cure event.
he said on stage "can the front row people raise up their hands. just the front row. okay now turn around. turn aroud. okay people. these are my frontliners. " :') memories that cannot be replaced nor erased.
never again will i drive all the way to kuala terengganu in a small packed car. hehe.
never again will i hear those words " pandang orang2 sebelah kiri saya ni, mana saya pergi diorang selalu ada"
never again will i be able to take stupid faces pictures with him
never again will i be getting prank calls saying that theres an iftar event, only to find out that i was overdressed in my open house baju as he called it. haha :P
never again will i be racing my lil onit with his white knight
never again will i sing in front of him and the crowd on stage. hihi *ifar RC event*
never again will i order a shoe shaped cake nor a guitar shaped cake. :')

there are too many memories.
that the rest, i think its best for me to keep it on my own.
and so. it is hard for me cause we had so much memories.
ive watched his career expanding, success turning to reality.
witnessed his happy and sad moments.

but life has got to go on. i wanted a new me. for the benefits of myself.
maybe one day you will understand

and so. as promised
when he was about to sing semesta, as the closing song for the concert
part of me is breaking, realizing that this is the last one ill be holding hands singing along with the people i love, live in front of the rockstar himself.
and yes, i couldnt manage to look at him or the band.
it feels sad. to finally say goodbye.
no regrets. this is it.

i know he'll be fine.
there are so many people who will continue supporting him
and i will too. but this time only thru my prayers
doa saya segala yang terbaik untuk dia. semoga imannya bertambah seiring usia, semoga dia sabar, tabah, dan tidak mudah hanyut. amin
may you be guided by HIM in every way thats possible

terima kasih FT
for given me the chance to be the lucky one. among your thousands fan. i was lucky\
those memories i will always treasure and secure it.
one day i think im gonna tell my granddaughter that the legend faizal tahir used to know me. hehe. :P
thank you for everything that uve done
budi baik anda, saya ucap terima kasih yang teramat sangat. you are always kind to me.
i was blessed. :')
and i am sorry for this. i promised forever but thats not possible
people need hijrah, including me.
:)
auww but no worries, there are a lot more people behind u.

remember, i have given you my Faith,
keep it. and dont lose it

always me :)