when i'm scared

i am now in the last posting of my clinical rotation. the last posting ever as an undergrad student, insyaAllah. rasa macam thrilled, that i made it up to this point, but of course lah cuak kan. that my student days are now becoming more obselete. so sila kuatkan hati untuk face the most difficult, the most unfair exams on earth, and that's the words my dean always says (siang tadi pon die cakap lagi. hukhuk)

anyway, it's nothing new la kan. i have my finals in couple of weeks time, and i have to work my ass off.

erm.. ive been feeling a weird feeling these past few days. ehemmmmm. *coughs*

i dont what this is exactly, but i'm scared, and happy. happy kenapa? dont ask, i also dont know :P

just that i dont know what to feel? does that make any sense

but hell yeah, i'm scared and i dont want to hurt myself anymore. faham ke? haha

but i hope this is just one temporary feeling, and it will passed. hopefully. fingers crossed.

walaupun, it has happened before, but that doesnt count la, masa zaman kanak-kanak lagi

ok shut up! :D

pegang hatiku Tuhan, lindungi aku.

jagakan hatiku

as my heart is very fragile and couldnt risk of falling again.

permudahkan semuanya.

semoga ada sinar di esok hari. amin