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Hello all. Assalamualaikum
We are approaching the end of december now. Theres only remaining of one week before we enter year 2013.
Another year, age increasing, and actually semakin dekat dgn kematian. Betol kan?

Year 2012 has been a very colorful year. A great year i would say and hoping 2013 will be better. In shaa Allah. Amin

Ive completed my housemanship in 2012. Learnt so many things medically. I have left HtAR n now working in a district hospital. Struggling with my own limited knowledge. I have received hidayah dariNya, and changing slowly, but surely. And i am ending my status of a single lady soon. :)

Okay ive only been engaged for 1 week or so. Hehe. Tak pernah jumpa encik lagi after majlis tunang so x tahu lah perasaan dia mcmana kannn. But one thing ive noticed ni, after kite tunang rasa rindu tu makin kerap timbul. Mengada je lebih kot. So bila rasa rindu tu da resurface kena cepat2 distract diri sndiri, kalau dilayan mmg la makin parah. Hehe. So the best wud be selawat, istighfar.. Tak elok lah rindu rindu lebih2 kan sbb baru tunang jee. Hehe. Ni lah orang ckp darah manis kot eh. Hehe. But i think hes more caring jugak in a way skrg. Hehe. Apa2 pun mohon Allah mudahkan urusan kami. Amin

Things to look forward to in 2013, im expecting a formal reunion of sspian since genap 10 years we left school. Looking forward to maybe another trip of bandung *i nevrr get bored of bandung* hehe. In shaa Allah doa2 dapat beli property next year. And of course i am excited for our wedding next year in shaa Allah yeayyyy!! And looking forward for us to stay together forever n ever n ever amin. Hehe. And the challenge begins of course, no doubt. Then lepas tu maybe boleh pergi holiday sama sama. :)

Welcome 2013. Thank you 2012. Uve been good. :)

We are there..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim


It is now 16th dec. Hari lahir ayahanda tersyg harini
And Alhamdulillah dgn izin Allah majlis semalam berlangsung dgn lancar. Alhamdulillah..
Started the day early, dengan debaran di dada of course. Heee

Make up sampai arnd 845am, and start make up at 9am.. Finished make up at arnd 10am jugak. Kakak photographer arrived at arnd 930am. Managed to shoot few shots semasa make up. Saya ditemani oleh 'geng2 faizal tahir' semasa make up. Hee.

Berdebar sgt2 sbb whn i texted him da gerak ke blom. Dia x reply. Haihh saba je la :p
Nways lepas tu i hand over my phone to kaksue n dia yg handle najmi lepas tu. Hehe

When kaksu said hes almost there. Terus rasa x keruan
Hehe. Bergerak ke sana sini till my glace frens said saya mcm ulat. Hehe.

Finally his family arrived at 11-ish. Tak sure berapa kereta but diketuai oleh encik kesayangan.. N soon the event started. From the room x berapa jelas but boleh dgr la diorang berpantun2 sebut nama arifah n najmi. Hehe.

And my future father in law yg mengetuai rombongan bagi meminang.hehe. Comel sgt pantun dia sbb ada phrase arifah diberi nama dara idaman, buat jejaka tampan nurul najmi. Kehkeh :p

Nways after the perbincangan n whatnots, meremang bulu roma bila ustaz tu cakap...
Dengan lafaz bismillahirrahmanirrahim, dengan rasminya, ambil maklum bahawa secara rasmi arifah kini menjadi tunangan nurul najmi. *tears welled up*

N i was ushered by none other than kak sue untuk ke pelamin mini utk sarung cincin. Urgh the feeling sgt lah nervous. Tgn sejuk gila. Kaki rasa licin mcm nak tergelincir. Dengan bulu mata yg mcm big bird lagi. Hehe. But managed to put a smile walaupun rasa nervous gila nak senyum plis. Hehe. When his mom came to me, taktau kena salam dlu ke terus hulur tgn. Hehe. But i salam first and hulur tgn. Waaaa nervous gila please.dah la duduk bersimpuh sikit lagi nak cramp. Hehe

After the sarung cincin ceremony masa baca doa tu, sikit bergenang air mata sbb tgk mak abah frm the stage. Tapi segan sbb tgk adik2 najmi n his anak2 buah. Haha. It went well.. That in shaa aallah in few months frm now we will have our ijab qabul dgn izinNya.

After that kena salam2 his relatives yg majority is his aunties. N adik2 n kakak2 with his cousins. Syukur they looked like they accepted me for now. Hehe. Restu tu kan pentinggg :)

And kak sue called him suruh keluar makan. When he arrived at the gate. For a moment our eyes locked tapi saya cepat2 lari masuk dalam sbb segan :p hahaha. But i asked him to duduk makan dlu sbb i cant teman him of courseee.

And selepas itu we managed a few shots together. Hehe. Paling menggelabah when kak bie the photographer suruh pandang each other in one of the shots which we failed without doubts. I cant even look at him straight to the eyes nemore. Malunyaaaaa. Haha. And he blushed of course the moment i looked at him lidat. Hehe.

Thank u to friends who came, moon, ahh, abs, kaput, efie, arock, lized, yati, milo n syami, tuckey, emilia, kakda, fai, jijot, syazana, feela, siti sarah, azreen, hazid, ahwong, fiza, vinita n hubby, jason, daniel, my specialist dr shahidi n wifey.

Thank you to those who wished me well. I appreciate it so muchhh. Those who prayed for us. Teruskan berdoa ye. Hehe

And to my family. U guys have been one awesome team n iam blessed to have yr endless supprt n prayers. In shaa Allah keluarga kita akan bertambah lagi seorang. Menantu bongsu. Adik ipar bongsu. Uncle mimi. :p haha.

Thank you syg. Thank you for the ring. I love it. And i love you. Lillahi ta'ala. And we love HIM. Arent we cool?
Hehe

Xoxo. Your fiance *euw*

Selamat datang cinta

Im writing this few hours before 15th dec 2012. Why it is an important day? Well 1stly because it is d day where we will make a promise, an official promise that we agree to build a life together.. And because 16th is my dearest daddy's birthday.

Subhanallah i know this is overwhelming for my dad to see his youngest finally becoming closer to a different phase of life. It is always his dream to see his youngest get married n stiffs so i might be emotional tomorrow.

The house is full n packed, all filled with excitements. N me too is also excited but also very very nervous. Siapa tak nervous kot when we are entering a different phase of life altho technically nothing changes.. Nervous sbb we never know what d future holds but i believe the feeling i have for him sejak mula mmg berlandaskan kepercayaan pada Allah. I leave it all to Him.

Sungguh sejujurnya saya sgt terharu that Allah loves me this much. Allah hadirkan dia sebagai bakal pendamping, teman susah dan senang, bakal pembimbing, bakal pelengkap hidup saya. Seorang yang pendiam, jujur, tegas n good looking*ahem* hehe n most importantly his iman.

Untuk bakal tunang saya, terima kasih kerana hadir dalam hidup saya. For not giving up on me now n in shaa Allah jangan give up sampai bila bila please syg. :') semoga this period of time dpt kita lalui bersama dgn tenang, dan in shaa Allah semoga jodoh kita membawa kita ke ijab qabul seterusnya agar kita dpt beroleh keluarga sakinah. Amin

Selamat datang dalam hidup saya sayang. Selamat dtg ke dlm keluarga saya. Semoga kekal selama lamaaaaanyaa. Amin

One step closer.
Its tomorrow.

one step closer

Bismillahirrahminirrahim

have i ever told you how we met? although there is nothing special about it. i wish to write it here. so as the years goes by, i could always read this and be reminded of it. In shaa Allah.

well. we met in HTAR Klang. see, there's a reason why i was posted there eventhough during the induction, i was shocked n kinda not willing to go to klang. Allah definitely has better plans. :)

i met him when i was in my 3rd posting, in medical ward. 

he was in his 1st posting at that time. so theres nothing magical when we first met. its not even 'love at first sight'. hehe

from what i remembered, i was in the ward looking through at the notes and saw a name, dr nurul najmi.

i thot its supposed to b a girl, so i asked the nurse which is dr nurul najmi. then the nurse pointed at him, and  looked, and shocked.. hehe . coz i thot its a girl. heeee.

but then we just nod at each other. thats it

throughout the posting, we became friends. quite close friends i think. cos anything that stressed us out we will text. stuffs like that. honestly during that time i have no intention of falling for him. because at that time i was kinda into someone else. so i barely paid enough attention at that time. 

but during that period of time, i knw hes a good guy. despite the busy-ness, he always find his way for solat, and always he would ask me, 'arifah dah solat?'

it really is nothing. but somehow i kinda attracted to it. hehe

and there was one time when we were both postcall, and both of us were doing our discharge summaries next to each other, but i was seriously 'tersengguk ' at the table. hehe. and he said to me, ' nak aku kasi segar balik?' i was cranky of course, and just mumbled something to him, until he actually said, 'bangunla syg..'

i was feeling a jolt of electgricity going through my heart seriously. hahaha.

but the thing that strikes me, was during my birthday, year 2011, when he wished me happy birtthday, i jokingly asked for a birthday gift, and he said.. okay..

well i didnt expect him to come up with a gift honestly. 

and my birthday was on a weekend, so the next working day, all of us ( we had pretty much an awesome group of friends during medical posting) went for a dinner together at the chinese rest in shah alam to celebrate my belated birthday. and he gave me my present there. :) it was a watch. its black silver in colour. 

hehe. i really loved it, honestly. sampai sekarang pun ada simpan lagi jam tu walaupun dah rosak. hehe

it kinda reminded me of him each time i wear it. well selepas dpt jam tu i practically wear it almost everyday. and the teasing started of course, my close friends were questioning on why he only give it to me. and i wud simply answer cz i asked for it. hehehe. sampai sekarang pun actually tak tahu the reason why he gave it to me. :p

only at the end of posting when i was about to leave the posting, i became more aware of myself. became a bit nervous. but of course, no one knew. heh

when i really left the posting, i kinda miss his presence, so i would be wishing for a chance for us to terserempak and stuffs like that. nak sms, tapi tak tau nak cakap ape. hehe

but there were times when we were in different posting and he ajak teman lunch. its like a dream come true! hehehe :P 

slowly after almost 4 months of keeping things to myself, i confessed to my close friends that i fall for him! although i was really scared til i cried . i really dont want to make things awkward. or complicated for that matter. i dont even know if he had a girlfriend back then. but after all the istikharah n prayers, the feeling still wont go away.

if u must know, i confessed to him. yes i did. altho i only confessed through a long text,i was seriously having a massive heart attack while confessing to him. one of the content was, ' pls tell me whether i should keep this feeling or discard it away' 

but he took 4 days to reply to it. i was seriously thinking that our friendship must have gone down the drain. after 4 days, i woke up at 6am to his text. a very very short one.. 'pls dont discard your feelings'

and i cried after reading it. hehehe

that was the very start of everything i guess.

we never declared that we were together or stuffs. slowly i learnt about him. eh sorry, i am still learning about him. and although i find him totally different from any guys that i know, im glad its him. 

i have never feel calmer than when i was with him. he brings me closer to Allah. thats the one reason why i think hes the one. sure, we've got a lot of differences actually.. arifah byk cakap, najmi banyak senyap. arifah   manja sikit :p, najmi serious. hehe

its only months since we became close. although i admitted we were not like any other couples. jujur, tak pernah gayut dalam phone pun. although in the initial stage, banyak merajuk with him sbb rasa dia ignorant and stuffs like that. but slowly, really slowly i become more mature :P hehe. slowly i understood him. he told me dia tak nak bercinta beriya sebelum nikah. :')

kira actually we texted everyday jugak but selalunya sekejap je. because sibuk pun. and kalau call, it wud be sebab yg penting2 and the longest chat maybe dlm 15 minit. lama jugak kan. hehe. itu pun masa i was oncall, and had to go buy something in d middle of night n had to walk alone so i asked him to stay with me on the phone. 

but he teaches me a lot. he made me closer to Allah, buat saya insaf diri sekejap. hehehe. and for that, i seriously am thankful to Allah for sending me someone i need, and want at the same time. cuma masa my birthday he is the sweetest ever! i would never have forgotten my birthday this year cz thats the first time i actually feel that he cares for me :P selama ni tak pernah tunjuk kan. hehehe :P

all these while that we are together, seriously boleh kira berapa i miss u or i love u. hahaha. sebab mmg takde :P hahaha.. okay tipu. ada la tapi mmg sikit je. bukan mcm org lain hari2 before tido i love u. hehe

and honestly sepanjang kawan dgn dia, tak pernah sekali pun pegang tangan ke apa kan. thank you for protecting me awak :')

okay. nanti arifah emo kejap lagi ni.

thank you najmi, for being with me all these while, for not giving up on me when i know u could just have given up on me especially when we were both stressed out few months back. thank you for being patience, and for still standing with me.

thank you for believing in me, for willing to accept me who is full with flaws and insecurity at times. 

thank you for protecting me, for loving me for the sake of Allah, for never taking advantage of me.

thank you for the friendship, love, happy and sad times spent, there will be many many more to come in the future In shaa Allah. 

thank you for accepting my family as a whole, and i will always love yours as i do love mine. In shaa Allah

thank you for coming into my life. slowly, but surely. jujur, at times i still freaked out but i know Allah is with us, and we will build a happy life together In shaa Allah

it is becoming more real now. and the feeling of happy, overwhelmed and sikit sedih sbb takut nak go through a different life altogether. although awak pernah cakap sekali je, this is the moment i believe every girl is waiting for. the journey that we will go through together in months from now, semoga Allah sentiasa berkati dan restui.

but for now, welcome to my life my dear encik kesayangan hati.

semoga sampai syurga. Amin :')

xx one step closer xx