RCs :)

adeh. this entry is totally about faizal tahir, and my rockensteiners. so bear with me, kalau agak2 rasa nak muntah, please kindly hit the red button on the right side of you, the upmost ok. ;p mesti rmai yang dah tahu based on my previous entries, ada pasal faizal kan? ya, saya memang one of his fans. okay? jangan tanya saya lagi. penat nak jawab. haha

anyway, misi menjejal faizal sebenarnya bermula selepas konsert satu suara. hehe. betul, his aura that night was the one yang triggered me untuk follow him closely. *mcm stalker je bunyik*

lepas konsert satu suara, went to muzik muzik to see him untuk pencalonan lagu selamat malam, and that was in february i think. and then went to Klang Parade untuk tengok road tour ABPH, went there with Diyanah Amin :)

and then masa study week haritu *ish tak senonoh, study week pn nak g kejar2 encik faizal ;p hehe*

1) went to ABPH kat Arena of Stars, Genting Highlands

this was my first time joining the RCs untuk event. my first time jugak to meet them. first time jumpa cik dee, kak e-ja, kak put, ahh, abs and others. memang gamble gila. it was the first time i went to genting by driving. i drove, all by myself hokayy~ bangga tak? sila buat muka bangga! hehe. mula2 nervous, but bila jumpa all the RCs yang pergi, we bonded easily. seronok gilaaa nyah borak2. on the way up to, siap nyanyi2 lagu faizal dalam kereta secara berjemaah, macam red box dah, siap angin tejuk sepoi2 bahasa meniup muka lagik. haa, amik! ;p

he didnt won any award masa tuh, tapi for me personally, he deserve even better than just being popular~ walaupun walaupun i spent quite a lot to vote for him *sebenarnya pergi library curik borang ABPH ;p* his performance with bunkface masa tu pun sangaatttt best gila ok! terbaik dari ladang orang cakap. manthappp~ kata supphort :P *sorry kalau u guys tak faham. ;p*

the moment they were going to announce the result, perasaan masa itu sgt lah super duper cuak, we were holding hands with each other, and when he didnt win, kami tetap bersorak untuk pemenangnya. :)

the best part, when the event semua sudah selesai, we were screaming his name. and he looked up to us, salute us.. :) and suddenly he was running, running towards us, climbed all the seats and stairs, and the next minute, he was in front of me. *terkejut badak nyah* hehe

it was the best moment ever. and he said thank you for coming, love u guys.sangat sweet. beberapa minit bersama faizal, dan tetap segar dalam ingatan.

masa tu memang kalut sangat, sbb faizal depan mata, entah berapa kali hulur tangan nak salam. haha. lepas tu, cari kamera tak jumpa2. and then i gave him my present, baju untuk baby rifaei yang super cute.

FT: untuk saya?

me: nope, for riff

FT; ohh*muka kecewa. *

urgh, tak tahu nak cakap macamana, i had sooo much fun being with the rockensteiners. u guys know who u are kan? :) oh lepas tu he went down untuk post party..and then we climbed up the seat, and sang selamat malam to him. and he waved at us from downstairs. sangat comel. :) and then we also sang semesta-the extended english version.

2) went to UNIMAP charity concert with my partner in crime, kak put :)

this one seriously sangat spontaneous, unplanned, and semuaaaa lah! mula2 memang tak plan langsung nak pergi. siap dah berduka cita jeles sebab kakput pergi. hehe. and siap dah ckp kat faizal, wont be going la, ape laa. hehe

sekali tu, petang around 3pm kakput texted me. and then the next minute i know, saya sudah berada di terminal putra untuk menemui kakput and her friends. hehe

gamble sangattt, concert start pukul 9pm, and kitorang pukul 6 baru nak keluar KL. haha

kakput drove sampai petronas before tol bentong *coughs*

and then i took over lepas tu, memang record habis laaa. tak pernah drive sejauh itu. took about 1 hour plus untuk sampai gambang. laju rupanya saya bawak. haha

sampai2 je memang timing hebat~ faizal did the opening. nyanyi few songsss~ tapi kami di belakang, tak dapat nak meet and greet with him personally. -__-

selesai majlis, ingat nak stalk mereka, but sumber mengatakan they went back to KL alreadyy. haiyahh

then pergi makan seafood with kakput, her friends, dee, her sister and cousins. kemudian pusing teluk chempedak, and went straight to KL back. lagi sekali kerja gile :p hehe. seronok borak2 ngan kakput all the way from gambang to KL. gilee aahhh~

:D

sampai KL around 4-ish alreadyy youuu. memang record terbaik pemanduan setakat ini ;p

3) the latest trip--kota bharu

ini pun last minute decision- setelah syahdu dan tacheng bila faizal ingat, mendoakan kejayaan saya, i think it;s time for me to personally meet him dan say thank youuu. percayalah, saya sgt terharu with all his gestures. and tiba2, abs dan kak e-ja pun nak joinn, yay!!! so ada lah teman, since kakput memang dah lamaaa confirmkan mahu pergi :)

masa ni pun gamble, result tak keluar lagi, tapi dah pergi jalan KB. tak senonoh kan? huhu :|

naik bas due tingkat ye u olls, hehe. jakun jap ;p 8 hours of journey, masa nak pergi tu. memang berdebarrrr sangat~ tatau la kenapa kan, but instinct ckp, this is something good ;p sampai KB saje, jalan kaki pergi hotel raudah--- credit to kak eja :) adalah tempat untuk kami tido tergolek kejap masa tunggu kakput tiba dari KL dengan penerbangannya ;D

then we had brunch kat pasar ape ntah tatau. makan telur jeruk ;p ;p then terus pergi renaissance :) ohh, memang sumpah nervous gilaaa~ naik je level 6, tengok poster faizal terpampang besar. excited gileee kitorang semua. hehe, baru nmpak potret kan ;p bergambar tak ingat punye la depan potret tuu. hehe.

the show roughly started at around 130pm kot, tu pun after a lengthy fashion show. dah la lengthy, pastu laki2 model mcm gay jek.urghh. ;p and then when faizal came out, haruslah we didnt just sit at our table, terus pergi ke depan stage and bertenggek di situuu sampai faizal habis nyanyi ;p and i was holding the Q card tulis RC on one hand, the other hand, was talking on phone with my cik dee, coz she wanted to hear faizal singing live :) hehe. i swear faizal pandang pelik gile pada saya mula2. haha. he even said, ape ni RC ni, saya FT, bukan RC ;p ciss

berlagak yeeee~ oh finee ;p

and honestly he ignored us, RCs yang kat bawah ni masa he was on stage. pandang our camera pun tak nak ;p oh and mestilah he ignored me, he asked the audience, is there any doctor in the room, and mestilah cik abs, cik eja, even kak wan pointed at me, and he just looked and smiled, and then terus ignore ;p haha. fineeeee -__- and when i tried nak berdiri sebelah dia when he went to the tables, die larikkk ok. keciwaa. he even said, tak payah la awk ;p haha

marah kan? ;p

and bila dah habis tu ade autograph session kat luar, i seriously thought he didnt ingat me sangat lah. bila dah sampai betul2 depan him

kakput to faizal: faizal, this is doc riff

FT; yes, i knowwww* sambil senyum*

me: err~~

FT: inilah budak yang ponteng exams nak dtg tgk show saya ;p

me: hey, mana ada ponteng exams, exam dh habis

FT: really? so how did it go?

me: i dont know

FT: i hope u did well

me: i hope too

FT: when is the result coming out?

me: tomorrow (masa ni hari khamis)

FT: oh, all the best. and do let me know

me: err, tengok lah macamane. kalau senyap tuuu, please understand ;p

FT: no., u hafta let me know.

me: err. ok ok.

he signed on my mp4 masa tu. and he didnt write his initials, so i said, tak tulis FT punnn. die pun pasrah jek, sambil ckp, awk ni mcm2 kan ;p hehe

after tu, pergi kacau2 encik jagger pulak, my hands were shaking after jumpa faizal soo sah2 la kene ejek with jagger. -__-

anyhow, selepas itu sweet moments happened. which apparently, saya tak boleh share di sini. the memories sangat besstttt. sangat best sampai bila everytime ingat rasa mcm tak percaya

thank you, for making our journey to kota bharu jadi sesuatu yang sangat sangat indah, u rock our world, honestly :)

and we too, straight from our hearts, love and respect u soo much! :) betul lah, u're sooo cool, and saya sangat2 terharu :) terima kasih mr rockenstein. thank you sebab made us happy, especially on behalf of my sister, kak put :) thank youu

we thank you

please dont get tired of seeing our faces ok ;p

ok now jom lihat gambar2 ;p *gambar berterabur malas nak susun*

signed with love by faizal :) *credit to jagger sebab helped us in this :)

my black adrenalin cover, now signed :)

what's up? im all smiles, FT ;p

whole lotta rocking love :)

now u dont have to wait nemore ;p

and u rock mine too ;p

my sony mp4, comot dah sikit sebab the surface kan licin. nevermind then, it;s the memories that will last ;p

:)

inilah potret dia yang buat kami hyperexcited ;p ;p with my dearest partner in crime, kak put :)

muka saya yang comot ;p

memories in genting. :) kakput, sayang ku cik dee, and me

the RCs :)

honestly, knowing the RCs sisters, it is the best moment in my life. never knew that kami akan bonded dengan sangat bestt, we're soo close ok. masa my exams pun, they all are very kind to text me and wish me well. tanya how am i doing, terharuuu sangat2. and mereka juga lah tolong sama-sama nervous bila saya nak amik result exams. :) i thank you guys, mcm sms kakput haritu, saya pun harap our sisterhood will last for a lifetime.

i love u guys. u know who u are, cewah ayat nak macam faizal je ;p hehehe

oh and i made a surprise for my efie busuk, and my lady dee :) hope they love it :)

ps: sorry panjang ;p

alhamdulillah.

tiada kata dapat diungkapkan untuk menggambarkan perasaan ini

hari ini, 30 april 2010.

we were gathered in the new lecture hall

perasaan tak payah cakap.

memang gemuruh jiwa. berpeluh2 walaupun dalam aircond.

sejuk tapak kaki, tapak tangan

cuba bertenang

dalam poket ada tisu yang sgt byk (token from secretary week show @ renaissance KB)

we were holding hans, me, farah, kak hani and moon

then the lecturers came in, one by one

almost all of them were there, those who taught us during our pre clinical years when we were sooo bodoh2 ayam kan masa tu ;p

then the dean came

semua orang tarik nafas, pastu tak lepas2

hukhuk

cuak gileeeee

and from the corner of my eyes, i can see the lecturers keep looking at our faces

selebet sgt ke, comot sgt ke? hehe

then the dean gave the speech of a responsibility of a doctor, he mentioned that in the years to come, we're gonna remember today, exactly as it is.

then he asked for the result from Prof Hamim, the deputy dean

memang tak bernafas masa dato khalid bacakan nama2 tu

start off with the guys first. then only the girls

tu pun nama tak susun ikut aplhabet, kucar kacir

bila dengar saja nama saya, terus melimpah juga air mata ini

sebak, terharu, tidak percaya, rasa mcam dalam mimpi

that i made it up to this point

it has always been a dream since i was small

walaupun masa kecil dulu, memang unintentionally cakap, bila besar nanti nak jadi doktor

nak tolong orang sakit, nak buat baik, nak jadi kaya--which apparently is soo not true. hehe

rasa sebak bila mengenangkan terlalu banyak nikmat Allah yang dikurniakan untuk saya

dari kecil sampai usia melebihi 2 dekad ni

terlalu banyak

maha suci Engkau Ya Allah yang telah mengurniakan nikmat ini untukku

jadikan aku seorang hamba Mu yang sentiasa mengingati Mu.

Alhamdulillah, akhirnya impian ini tercapai

Alhamdulillah, doa ku, doa ibu bapa, kakak-kakakku, abang-abang iparku, anak-anak saudara ku, saudara maraku, sahabatku, guru2 ku,dan kalian yang sentiasa mendoakan, akhirnya dikabulkan Allah

tidak ada kata yang mampu saya ucapkan untuk melambangkan rasa terharu saya

juga tidak mungkin mampu saya balas jasa baik anda semua yang tidak jemu2 mencuba untuk menyuruh saya bertahan, keep the FAITH

terima kasih

jasa anda saya kenang sampai syurga.

Syukur ku pada Mu ya Allah

atas nikmat ini

after this responsibility akan jadi makin besar

saya harus korbankan banyak perkara untuk ini.

saya akan cuba ikhlaskan hati untuk mereka yang memerlukan khidmat saya, walaupun kadangkala mungkin terkhilaf, kerana hakikatnya, saya juga manusia biasa

terima kasih sekali lagi buat semua teman

buat semua rakan.

buat rockensteiners yang tidak jemu menjadi pensupphort saya~ kate supphort ;p

eh okay, tukar mood serious ;p

dulu masa mula2 encik faizal called me doc, saya sebenarnya sedikit cuak

ok bukan sedikit, banyakk kot

i tried to avoid it,tapi he just couldnt stop calling me that

orang cakap panggil banyak2 kali, jadi satu doa kan? :)

terima kasih semesta ku.

jasa anda saya kenang sampai bila2, sampai syurga, insyaAllah

ps: tak sabar mahu bertemu kaum keluarga. kejayaan ini untuk mak dan abah, sempena ulangtahun perkahwinan mereka yang jatuh pada 28 april, ulang tahun ke 42 :)

i love u both.

examsss and the details of it ;p

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Alhamdulillah, my final exam sudah habis semalam. lega sekejap sebab dah tak larat otak ni nak working extra hours ;p tapi result belum dapat lagi

sekarang berdebar2 sgt222 untuk result on friday.

semoga usaha kami semua diberkati, dan semoga kami semua lulus cemerlang.AMIN

sekarang mixed emotions dah rasa. sedih sebab bila fikir balik, we are sooo coming towards the end of our undergrad study. 5 years kami sama2, mcm masa kat sekolah dulu la, 5 tahun. pejam celik pejam celik, pejam tak celik2, it has been 5 years. kira bila jumpa balik staffs yang kerja kat shah alam dulu sebab diorang kena jaga our exams, ada yang dah beranak dua dah. ngeee~ lepas ni tak tahu lah bila akan dapat jumpa semua, mesti terpisah jauh2. semua mintak kerja kat hometown masing *saya je tak;p*

anyhow, its been a memorable 5 years of journey for all of us. semua susah payah kami, semua momen2 yang indah, akan menjadi kenangan sampai akhir hayat. *nanti buat special entry abt our 5 years of journey lah*

professional III exams, it is a continuation of our Professional I exam-masa tahun satu dulu, and Professional II exam-masa tahun dua dulu.. it's a combination of everything that we learned. dari tahun satu sampai tahun lima, anything under the sun can come out in the questions. cuak tak dgr? hehehe. oh jangan salah faham, bukan bermaksud sepanjang tahun 3 to tahun 5 tu we dont have exams yeee. we have a lot of it. every 2 months, we would have end of posting exams. urghhh.

anyway, theory paper started on 20th april. hari pertama exam, memang nervousss sgt. sebab essay kot. the 2nd day of theory sgt memenatkan otak hokayyy~ we have to answer 120 questions yang soalan die panjang gileeee, especially from medicine posting. dah la tu, u have to like change yr brain punye memory every minute sebab the questions compiled semua field. [medicine, psychiatry, paediatrics in one paper] and lagi [surgery, obs and gynae, orthopaedics] in one paper. tangan pulak lenguhhh gila sebab kena hitamkan the OMR papers, sampai 500 bulat2 kena hitamkan okayy~ but luckily the answer it's either False or True, so F or T, maka it equals to FT. *err ade kaitan? ;p*

and the last day for theory tuu, MME exam. susah hokayy~ keluar balik anatomy yang belajar masa zaman jahiliah tahun satu dulu. ade kaki manusia setepek die letak kat meja exam. hoho. kemudian microbiology dia bagi microscope segala, specimen patho pulak keluar colorectal cancer. pastu ada chest X Ray, pastu keluar instrument iaitu chest tube. -__-

and debaran paling hebat... mestilah masa clinical exams. clinical as in, we will be brought to a patient, and we have to ask all the history of the patients, construct it, make it as nice as possible, and present it to the group of examiners.. and kena check patient tu, and make our diagnosis. kena support our own diagnosis, justify kenapa we choose that diagnosis. kemudian make an outline of management. and kemudian selamat menjawab soalan2 bernas yang akan keluar dari mulut examiners laaa.. -oh, and that is known as long case

next, setelah selesai long case, ada lagi 3 short cases. we will be brought to anyyy patients. and kena terus examine di hadapan mereka, tak dibenarkan untuk tanya apa2 pun kat patient. we just have to examine, present the findings and postulate a diagnosis.

and yesterday was my turn, honestly tak pernah rasa anxious mcm ni. i mean like, for few days before nak exam clinical tu, my heart beat sudah laju gileeee, sampai rasa mcm nak pengsan. kaki pulak rasa sejuk gileee je. pastu pulak, bila dengar lagu SEMESTA by faiza tahir, sure konpem rasa nak nanges. hoho. psycho kan? tengok gmbr family, rasa sebak jeee. haishh. mcm2 feelings laa. sebab cuakkk sgt hokayy~ being the youngest in the family, i know setinggi mana harapan mak and abah towards me, although they never pushed me or anything. and i want to make em proud of me. the same goes to my sisters. and i have to set a good example for my nieces and nephews to follow. since, memang ada my nieces sekarang yang akan cakap they wanted to be like me. hehehe

the feelings were so intense, muka memang muka pressure gila sampai my housemate ckp takut nak tegur saya one day prior to hari exam. hehe. malam exam tu pulak, memang serious berdebarrr je, and dah start rasa pasrah, huhu. malam tu i cant sleep. dok golek2 atas katil at 1am, then at 2.30am terjaga.. at 3am bangun lagik. at 4 am terjaga lagik. last skali at 430 am terus amik buku and baca. -__-

pastu siap psycho gila sampai termuntahh. adehhh, i've never been like that previously, not ever. huhu. siap masa nak keluar rumah pukul 715 tu, rasa macam nak nanges. mata dah bergenang2. -__-

and kami the first batch yang amik exams tuu, so macam orang hari kedua and ketiga depended on us untuk tau siapa examiners, what kind of questions mereka tanya, patients mcmane yang keluar exam tu. so pukul 930am, i was brought to see the patient, i got a PAEDIATRIC case hokayy~ dalam hati doa banyak2 sebab cuak with paeds. *note: paediatrics is a tough subject. tapi sebenarnye semua pun tough, haha*

luckily, the patient [ a 4year old malay girl] baik jeee. with her mom. the patient ada asthma. tarik nafas legaaaa~ one hour later, was brought to the examiners room. ada 4 orang hokayyy~ Dr Wan Jazilah ( head of dept for paeds in Hosp Selayang), Prof Hashim (our O&G lecturer), Dr Freda (endocrinologist in HKL) and Prof Fauzi (the Dean of UIA ). so overall i think it went well because rasanya at the end of it, Dr Wan Jazilah mcm cakap very good. haha. *ke perasan?*

and for the short cases, my group of examiners - Assoc Prof Dr Tengku (respiratory physician merangkap our lecturer), Dr Roslan (O&G specialist of Hosp Selayang), Dato Razak (Ortho specialist), Dr Foo( neonatologist of Hosp Sg Buloh)..

baca doa byk2, selawat... and 1st case- case ibu mengandung. Dr Roslan as a major, patient complained of lower abdominal pain, please examine the patient.

so, i acted cool, amik hand sanitizer, kemudian introduce, ask permission and proceed.

questions asked: present yr findings, how to time the contractions, how to monitor fetus, what would you like to do, what is your differential diagnosis.

2nd case- Orthopaedicsss!! (damn, memang ortho sgt tak bersedia lah.demmit)

a young man presented with history of sports injury, please examine the knee-Dato' Razak as a major.

menggelabah hokayy~ padan muka diri sendiri -__-

but i wasss sooo lucky sebab dato razak helped me all the way until i made a diagnosis. terima kasih dato'. u're soo cool :D ngee~ oh plus, patient tu hemsemmm okay ;p hahaha

3rd case- Medicine

Dr Tengku as a major, please examine the cardiovascular. selak2 je baju pakcik tu, ada la scar from previous surgery, midline sternotomy scar.

pastu pulse die in atrial fibrillation

sekali dengar2, ada prosthetic click

urghh. sumpah tak penah dgr bunyik tu sebelum ni, 1st tyme dgr masa final exams yoo. ~

so my diagnosis patient had undergone a prosthetic valve replacement

and kemudian habis. Dr Tengku cakap, okay arifah, u can go now.

me: huh. habis dah? can go?

dr Tengku: yes u can go

me: really i can go?

all the examiners smile and gelakkan saya.

apesal la bongek aku ni masa tuh 0_0.

Alhamdulillah, Allah permudahkan untuk saya. Sujud syukur pada-Mu ya Allah. and received good news, semua yang exam semalam lulus for the clinical part. *sebak*

so now, waiting for the overall result. sebab our exams ni, campur the theory+clinical. dua2 part kena lulus, if one part fail, then terus fail walaupun the other part tu kita cemerlang gila.

please pray for us. im so close of my dreams, that i feel goosebumps all over me.

harapnya lulus. AMIN.

doa darinya untuk kami

i am now in the middle of my professional 3 exams. the theory part sudah selesai. alhamdulillah ada yang boleh jawab, ada jugak yang susah, ermmm. sekarang masanya untuk berdoa dan berserah bukan?

anyway, hari ni memang soalan agak sukar. the MME exam. keluar kaki manusia ok. yang dah tak berapa nak ingat sbb belajar masa tahun satu dulu. hehe. lepas tu keluar usus. euw. haha.

anyway, i intended to write abt this after my exams, tapi tak tahan rasa nak share. heee.

i am honestly sangat terharu with all the text messages, the FB messages, the wall posts and all. terima kasih untuk semua yang baik hati, prihatin dan sentiasa mendoakan kejayaan saya. tak mungkin mampu untuk saya balas semua jasa baik kalian, semoga Allah memberikan rahmat yang tak putus2 untuk anda semua..

and today jugak. my super sweet rockensteiners buat saya lagi sekali terharuuuu :) thanks soooo much especially to kak put, abs, kak eja, efie azlan (also my angel maaa ;p) , diyanah, and semua lah. tak boleh nak list down sbb mmg ramai..

thank you. i love u guys sooo much walaupun kita baru saja kenal, kan? walaupun baru kenal, rapat mcm dah bertahun2 kenal. thank youuuu. i heart you guys to bits and pieces. let's take a look down here at the pictures shall we. (please click for larger images )

my kakak also known as partner in crime, kak put... :) thanksss kakput sebab tolong conteng wall mr faizal. :)

doa istimewa dari my respected mr faizal tahir to all yang sedang amik exams. his SEMESTA, that is. ini buat saya sungguh rasa terharu. it shows that he really do cares. :)

ini respond dia bila saya kecewa tak dapat join the secretary week shows becz of the exams and all the tight schedules. and insyaAllah, i will excel. Amin. mr faizal, i will let u know when i get 'there'. :)

his special message to his semesta, diyanah amin :) good luck for examsssss!! :D

keep holding on, right? thank youuu so much my respected mr faizal. you are definitely one of a kind! and i respect uuu from the bottom of my heart. :)

special thanks to kakput. partner in crime. rindduuu sama kamuu! ;) look, his doa for me. AMIN. terima kasih sekali lagi faizal. you, kak anim, the kids and all of yr family will be in my prayers too. :)

ps: i will get through this. :)