Just random

Sometimes in life, we are so intrigued by the word-the grass is greener on the other side.

Often we forget that it might just be an illusion. :)

it does not matter whether the grass is really greener or not, but we have to thankful and appreciative of what we have. kena selalu bersyukur atas kurniaan ilahi

Same goes for the heart. Kadang2 rasa terganggu. As for me, sama lah. Manusia. Thats what makes me humane. Benda2 dari bahagian masa lepas kerapkali boleh appear out of nowhere and mengusik hati kembali
But that does not give me the right to go back in time.
I am here now, living in the moment. And there is no other feeling that i wish to have rather than this feeling im feeling now :) uhh pening tak ayat ni? :p

Dear Allah. Please get hold of my heart. Dear Iman, please be strong. Dear self, please always remember the dos n donts.

Allah, make it easy for me please :)
InsyaAllah. Semua akan mudah.

The recent event

Okay. So i lied about not going to genting. haih
I did go to genting. Wasnt excited about the award itself, more excited of meeting my dearest sisters. :) and yeah, i think this is my last abp. InsyaAllah. Belum lagi yang terakhir cz there'll be sec week n the last-his solo concert walaupun tatau bile :p

the 7 of us made it to the puncak, and tambah lagi seorang, my dearest arock! :) so happy to see em. I know i havent spend much time with them because of my work schedule. So yeah, this is like an opportunity. :)

What i love about the event is i like to watch all the fans clubs punya ragam. Hehe. Among those that were there and was obvious, fan club of shaheizy sam-they called him captain, fafau's fun corner, tasha shilla's, siti zoners, aaronators yang gila ramaiii fuhh :p and few other minority. Heh

so yeah kalau last year the rockstar won a trophy, but he didnt make this year. Sokay, i know hes cool with it :) truth be told, I kinda expect it jugak. But as i said, i came not to see him holding the award kann. Cuma kalau ada rezeki, that'll be good seeing him happy :)

Oh and masa event tu, i saw someone collapsed, and then i saw the st john ambulance team took the person outside using wheelchair. And being a doctor that i am, somehow i feel obliged to go and have a look. In my mind, what if that person is suffering from chest pain, and being me, if i am not bothered, wouldnt the sin be on me? So yes, tho i left my id in my car, i went down to the security and explained that i wanted to help if possible. So they escorted me outside. Hahaha. Quite nice ada orang escort sekejap :p tapi segan of course kena lalu kat area artis2 tu, and yes, i wore a rockstar's badge. Maybe thats why people were looking. Haha. And outside, met anuar zain. I think he just performed masa tu. and the security siap ckp, mintak laluan, she's a doctor :p haha. And he was like-- ohh hye doctor :p
Me: eh hye. Smile. Hehe

Ampun kak eja :p

So turned out patient was fine, and theres actually another doctor around. Hee. Asked few questions to the patient, suruh dorang check glucose kejp and auscultate her a while, then i left. and the paramedics all shake hand with me, and asked me, u are doctor? Then looked at my nametag. Damn. Terus rasa merah mukaa :p and i said, eh nooo, thats not my name! Hehehe.

So on the way back to my seat, the security pn tanya how come u are here doctor? And i go like, uhhh actually im here to watch faizal tahir. And he goes, ohh minat faizal tahir aa? And i go, uhh boleh la sikit2 :p haha

That was my moment of doctor there in the midst of the event. I didnt shy away from my responsibility. And yes, i feel good because of that. :)

Cut it short, finally the man came up to his beloved rockensteiners, tho kami semua duduk static saja. Hehe. And uhh he baling his scarf and people berebut nk amik, causing dee to jatuh and spoilt her mood for a while. Terus limping da kesayangan saya.

Okay and yeah. We prepared a lil something for the man. It has been so long since we spoilt him. like previously, selalu jugak kasik small small stuffs for him. So we chose to pampered him a bit on the night of event walaupun unsure boleh jumpa ke tidak ke, just gamble je. Kalau tak dapat jumpa, then we could always pass it to him, err thru the receptionist :p haha

So kaput did her superb artwork, made a gigantic twitter card for the man. It was so creative. There's no freaking way i will be able to make something like that. Hehe. and me, baked a cake for him. Haha. Okay not me. But u know what i mean right? :p

Faith work its way as i called it, somehow miraculouly managed to see him for a while, and yes gave him the heavy n huge cake by hand to him :) and yes sempat potong cake sama2 and everyone took a bite. Mcm happy birthday sgt :p hehe. And yes as usual, borak sikit2. He was busy with mentor, and trying to finish anas punya arrangement song for mentor

After that we headed off to old town, mcm routine pulak kena lepak old town sana :p tho different this time cz abg long's not there. So im sad :(

Nonetheless, the few hours we had together, spent with my sisters are always the best.
May our friendship stays thru all that we've been thru together.

And to the man, may Allah bless you always, may Allah guides you through all the difficulties that you are facing. May you always be blessed by people who are honest and loyal to you, plus the ones who love you at your best and worst, and all in between...
And i hope you will get lucky always. You will move forward and produce more amazing songs and melody to keep us all accompanied :)

And personally from me, i wish you well. Jangan selalu sakit2 :) thank you from me, for always being an amazing person towards me walaupun you always buat muka if i wanna take pikcha with you. Nevermind that. Ehe. I am truly lucky for given the chance to be one of your many thousands people who adore your work. You inspired me. From before. Till now. Always.
Hope you like the cake that i baked for you :p kahkah. Till then

love.

On friendships

My close friend is now facing a problem. Dont know much of the details but i know its troubling her

So i dedicate this one for her
I hope it will ease her a bit

Dear you
Sometimes in life we are faced with unexpected things. Sometimes we put our trust too much to someone only to realize that the person cannot be trusted. And sometimes we think tht we know all that we need to know about someone until suddenly that someone changed, and become a complete stranger to you.
we need to accept that, things gonwrong most of the times. Trusts broken, promises betrayed, no one said life is gonna be easy

Maybe thats why they say life is not a bed of roses. it is not. Its full with thorns
But i want you to be strong, Because you deserve better..

Most of it, i want you to always know that you are never alone. He planned all this, only to make you stronger
:)
So pray to Him, tell Him every single details that you wish to tell. May Allah ease your pain

And on my part, i pray that your headt will heal faster. That you wont stumble down, instead this will make you a lot more stronger. I may not be the best person to share this with, but im here. And i wont leave you alone. If you feel like crying, i can lend myshoulder. I you feel like running away, i cn run with you (but only for a while, cause my muscles are weakened due to defaulted gym appointments. Hehe)
I am here, i will be around insyaAllah.
If you want to do crazy things, i might stop you though. You are precious to me, and to us all.

Yes things are sad at this moment. So cry it out, let it all out. But only for a while. And i pray you will wake up feeling fresher than ever. :) and your heart is stronger than an army. time is a good healer, now i believe in that because ive gone thru the similar kind of pain. And ive healed. Miraculously healed with the power of Him

Im sorry i cannot cure your heart tho i am a doctor by profession. I can only be a friend, a good one i hope and pray for you. And be here for you.

Nowww, do the things that make you happy. Go listen to faizal's songs if that makes you happy :)

And remember, i love you

xoxo

these are my important people,part 1

have you ever experienced a beautiful friendships in your life?

ever?

we all has best friends, sometimes it last but sometimes we get so carried away with life

that somehow we forgot to keep in touch

after all, we are only human

but that doesnt mean the friendship is forgotten

so i will personally revealed my many best friends / sisters

and tonight i choose to talk about my close friends, whom i met by chance in an unexpected way. well they are more like sisters to me.

we met through faizal tahir.

thats one of the blessings i got through the rockstar.

these people, initially we talked only about the artiste, the shows etc etc

but throughout time, years now,

weve grown closer and talk about anything

its funny how different each of us are, yet still be able to remain close <3

kak eja :

the eldest amongst all. kan? hehe. the first time i chatted with her, was at rc website. we were talking about spa interview at that time. i was nervous for my suruhanjaya perkhidmatan awam interview. and i learnt that shes working in a govt sector as well. first time i met her was in year 2010, for abpbh. shes a strict sister, tegas orangnya, penuh dengan etika :P hehe. kalau makan kat hotel ni mmg kne jeling sebab salah pilih fork n spoon :P hihi

regardless, a very caring one also :) and shes getting married soon. Alhamdulillah.

heart you!

kakput

(tiba2 tak ingat umur kaput :P)

first time bercakap dengan kakput was masa faizal's album release. masa tu tgh pepoyo nak awal aje beli cd faizal. so kena book sana book sini. and turned out i texted kakput, nak tak saya bookkan for her? that was the start :) and then, juga pertama kali jumpa masa event abpbh 2010, first time jumpa, then we all just clicked together. a mother of two, nowww how cool can that be? a strong woman, i dont know how strong a woman can be till i met her. juga tempat meluahkan masalah saya. sebab selalunya orang makan garam lebih ni advice dia lebih rasional :p eceh. she tried to matchmake me with her cousin, tapi tak jadik! auwww :P hehe

wanita ini kesayangan faizal tahir, juga anak2 nya juga kesayngan faizal. bak kata faizal, hugs to the kids :)

kak asmak

ini mak tiri. sebab dia garang. tapi comel. tapi garang. :P kalau dia start bebel, huiiiiiiii panjang sedepa. tak pernah chatting sgt ngan kak asmak, cuma tiba2 dia ada kat whatsapp. hehe. then met her masa ke hard rock penang utk launching adrenalin. masa tu baru tahu kak asmak ni pun strict jugak mcm kak eja,

punctual. kalau tak kena marah ngan kak asmak. hehe.

now she soften a bit, sebab shes now a mother of a beautiful princess layla :)

juga seorang wanita yang sangat strong. all my sisters are strong. definitely

kak abs

perlu ke kak abs? ehe. kak abs ni, adik jumpa kat chatspace rc jugak. masa tu dia rajin sgt chatting sana. kemudian kita borak2 la. hehe. pastu dia rajin amik order siapa2 nak kirim cd la, ape la :P hehe. kak abs pernah dapat hadiah senduk :D hahaha. adik pn pernah dapat gak :P

kita jumpa first time....kat genting jumpa first time, tapi masa tu kita tak travel sama2. hehe.

shes a verrryyy lucky woman i tell you. almost every contest dia masuk, sure menang :P hehe. namanya unsangkarable. shes not yet taken. siapa nak ngorat kena go thru us dulu. cewah. hehe.

dia ni jugak budak ketam, bak kata susue :P hehe. hati senang terusik kann. hi-5 sket! hehe

oh skrg dia juga kesayangan faizal. sikit2 dpt love. absdomen! :P

dyana

ini supergirl. masa mula2 nampak profile dia kat fb, rasa mcm wowww she must be super close to faizal tahir. nak add lah :P hahaha. then we commented on facebook lah. pm lah. the first time she called me, juga masa nak naik genting. suara kecikkk aje :P hehehe

orangnya comel, mcm stacy sikit cuma in a cuter version, suara dia sedap. pandai nyanyi. hehe

weve been thru a lot together. secrets shared. moments experienced. tkleh nak ckp byk2, nanti sedih plak :P hehe

a very good friend indeed, with a good heart. :)

shes also kesayangan faizal, royale dee :P

ahhcomey

masa mula2 tgk nama dia mcm wowww. gila ah nama fb kauu! hehe. masa tu kat personal page faizal. kecoh berebut2 nak mengomen ngan faizal :P hehe. kemudian jumpa pertama kali juga di genting. masa tu kan baru2 nak kenal :P

shes a good cook. suka makan junkfood. suka jugak makan m&m kaler kuning. :P hehe

a softy jugak. senang menangis kadang2. hehe. tp a good friend jugak :) tempat meluahkan perasaan juga. maseh ahh :P hehehe

paling best, ini insan yang faizal paling suka sakat. like serious. :P

efieazlan

ini hardcore punya bestie. dari tahun 2004. kira sendiri brape lama. hehe.dari dulu sampai skrg. dari zaman jatuh cinta pada ahseng smp skrg niiii. :) thank u yang. u knw me too much :P hehe.

so ini takleh la ckp first time jumpa masa abp, mmg nak kena sepak. hehe. we went to konsert satu suara together which lead us here. we shouldnt have go right? :P tapi kalau tak pergi, takjumpa lah insan2 kat ats as mentioned.

u know i love you.

big time.

suhaila

ini dah kira royale family of faizaltahir. sekrang da jarang jumpa. sebab da jadi isteri orang. jumpa pertama kali masa nak ke penang. comelll sangat cm kucing :P hehe

rindu sueshi :*

in case u guys havent know, i just want u to know that i love u guys. despite all the differences we had, you guys are still an important part of me. true, we didnt meet that often, cuma 24/7 texting n whatsapping aje. regardless, we have gone so much together. all the tears n joy we've shared. the ups n downs, the journey of our sisterhood is what matters most

i couldnt believe myself that iwas blessed to have you guys who love me that much. err betol kan korang sayang saya?

thank u for being in my life. for choosing faizal in the first place, thus we met becoz of him :P

thanks for every moment shared, laughters shared. kesemuanya sekali :')

if ever after this i get busy with life, or have to go away from u guys, please know that i wil always love you.

and yes, in my prayers you guys will always be

sisters forever :*

thanking Allah for this beautiful bond. alhamdulillah :)