okay here i go again with another entry. so tomorrow im going back to KL already. life must go on kan, despite of my mood yang malassss sangat nak kerja, but nak buat macamana kan, terpaksa gagahkan diri sebab ada responsibility...

so lepas ni perlu focus to my assessment because i will leave the department next month, insyaAllah :) hope sangat2 lepas assessment n tak payah extend. AMIN.

neways, raya was fine. nothing fancy, cuma berkumpul kaum keluarga je :) and me, takde baju raya yang tailor-made pun. semua beli siap, last minute ;p sebab baru perasan takde baju raya. kalau ikutkan hati nak pakai baju konvo saje, sbab baru pakai sekali je kannn. tapi mak n abah suruh jugak beli baju baru ;p ngee~ neways memang simple saja, just berjubah saja :) sejak balik umrah aritu mmg sangat suka dgn jubah :)

neway, raya was different sebab buat mini open house for the cousins :) itu saja lah. yang lain, so routine ;p hehe

the cousins *abah's side* gathered at my hse.. ramai jugak kann :) hehehe. spot me? ;p

sesi bagi duit raya dekat anak2 buah :) *adeh pokai i ;p*

my official baju raya-tak nampak sgt la sbb dukung budak comot ni ;p

ps: sorry entry before ni tadi tulis gune tepon. sekali mmg takleh baca. biarla, jadi hiasan ;p

I AM MISSING SOMEONE, SO BAD THAT I FEEL LIKE CRYING..I SERIOUSLY DONT KNW WHERE THIS FEELING COME FROM..SIGH..I WISH THINGS ARE LESS COMPLICATED SO THAT I CAN PROPERLY MISS SOMEOEN WITHOUT ANY GUILT.. OKAY STOP GUESSING COS I WONT GIVE ANY HINT. ..SUFFICE TO SAY THAT MY FEELING MADE ME FEEL GUILTY AS EVER.. AND IM SCARED OF THIS FEELING..BUT STILL MR SO FAR AWAY, I MISS YOU. LIKE PROPERLY MISSING YOU AND ALL I WANTED TO DO IS SEE YOU IN FLESH. I SHOULD PERFORM A SOLAT ISTIKHARAH I KNOW..COZ THIS IS SO WRONG...REGARDLESS OF THAT, I MISS YOU IN A BAD BAD WAY.

salam..

salam aidilfitri to all :) how's raya been so far?

hopefully its been great

mine? cukup simple, but happy to finally be with my loved ones :)

this year. the celebration is definitely different from all the other years

mainly because ive come to term with me being a grown up, with responsibility. *coughs*

basically it's different because

#1. the 1st raya im a working adult.

#2. the 1st time shopping raya menggunakan hasil duit titik peluh sendiri :) satisfaction yaaa.

#3. pertama kali malam raya tiada di rumah. sedih. -tapi ubat hati pergi jalan tar malam raya, and ended up me being a cotton freak. bought 4 pairs of baju kurung cotton, 3 for me, and 1 for my mommy :) heeee.

#4. sambut raya di dalam ward. tabah kan saya. bangun pagi2 pukul 6, tak sempat mandi sunat raya pun.. terus punch in masuk kerja.. rasa mcm nak menitik jugak air mata bila dgr takbir tu :)

#5. 1st time bagi duit raya... :) walaupun kopak, tapi rasa puas hati :)

see. saya malas nak tulis tetiba. see u all later la i guess :) with pics i hope. im so lazyy to do this thing walaupun rasa nak bercerita ;p

and so i decided

that it cannot be undone

and so im letting you go

no matter what im feeling now

it does not matter

because apparently things can never be better

and i can never be the same again

yes, i am letting you go.