writer's block. but i'm not a writer.

watched my sister's keeper

bestttt. and touching la of course

but as always, kalau bace the novel lagi beshh n layan la kan :D

nway, taylor si boyfren yang ade acute myelocytic leukemia itu sangat kacak

despite the fact that he has leukemia

and auwww they fall in love during his chemo session

and mcm sweet, dont u think?

like both of them fall in love, wpun rambut sudah tiada due to the effects of cytotoxic agents.

ini barulah orang panggil, cinta sejati tak mengira rupa atau rambut. tehee (ok i am babbling, stop please fuh)

tak tahu nak tulis apa.

but still wanna write

thanks for reading though :p

ps : i'm getting tired. of waiting, whatever that means.

cranky

i am in no mood. to study.

to do write-up. to do seminar.

tiada mood.

penat. cranky.

so this is wat i do instead :P

Name: si polan

Sisters: i got 6 of em. and i love em sangat sangat sangat.

Brothers: tiada yang kandung. walaupun nak sgt yang kandung :( but hey, i've got 6 BIL. haha. logic la kan? :P

Shoe size: hehe. takmo cakap kat sini, boleh? unless if u wish to personally buy me a pressie, please send me a private text :D

Height: 160 cm. kadang2 boleh jadi 161.5 cm. kalau ralat berlaku. kalau pakai stilletos. boleh jadi lebih tinggi. yeah

Where do you live: sekarang? di selangor

Have you ever been on a plane: yup. last time mase pergi sabah in april. will be going on plane lagi in few weeks time. oh yes, i need time to chill. kenapa rasa mcm depress sgt ni? :(

Swam in the ocean: not fond of water. hehe.

Fallen asleep at school: of course pernah, siap penah letak minyak cap kapak kat kening sebab try tanak tido; last2 skali tido gak :P

Broken someone’s heart: erm?

Fell off your chair: penah kot. mase dulu2 kan, kat skola org suke main tarik2 kerusi tu kan. kelepop jatuh suda!

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: yes. pathetic tak? :(

Saved e-mails: mestilah. especially if it means something kan?

What is your room like: just like me. messy

What’s right beside you: bolsters. and handphones. and yes, they are not ringing. wtf

What is the last thing you ate: fried rice home made punye. hehe

Chicken pox: the last time mase form 4. hehe

Sore throat: erm tak ingatlah. but ade lah selalu jugak.

Stitches: belum ada. hehe

Broken nose: hoho, nastyyy. takmmooo

Do you believe in love at first sight: maybe yes they exist. tapi personally, tak tahu lah. heh

Like picnics: suke lahhh! ;D

Who was/were…The last person you danced with: mana ade dance2 nii uuu.

Last made you smile: my adorable twin nephews.

You last yelled at: someone. sorry

Today did you…

Talked to someone you like: my sisters.

Kissed anyone: yes yes

Get sick: i'm depressed. that's sick right?

Talk to an ex: ex? axe?

Miss someone: i guess so. benci kan?

Who do you really hate: sedaya upaya cuba taknak benci sape2 sebab the thing works like karma. tapi apakan daya, i'm only human, haish

Do you like your hand-writing: dulu masa sekolah mcm cantik skit. sekarang mcm dah super duper hodoh. kenape?? :P

Are your toe nails painted: mane ade. cane nak amik wudhu? hehe

Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: teringin jugak to sleep in those high end punye hotel suites. best kan? okay, save it for the best occasion :D (haha. mode gatal.)

What color shirt are you wearing now: blueish

Are you a friendly person: it depends really.

Do you have any pets: nope. i am never fond of animals

Do you sleep with the TV on: tak lah.

What are you doing right now: thinking. feeling. writing.

Can you handle the truth: invariably yes. even if its hard to face. huhu

Are you closer to your mother or father: mom

Do you eat healthy: entah

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex: demm. check lah sendiri kalau nak tahu. huh

If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to: someone whom i'm comfortable with. but now dia tiada? :(

Are you loud or quiet most of the time: both. mungkin i can diagnose myself with bipolar disorder then? hrmmm

Are you confident: depends lah. haha. but usually during exams, asal examiner gertak sikit je, i tend to fumble. a lot ok? haha

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:

-i was in seri puteri. had a greatt tyme thereee!! :D (ok dulu rasa cm tak best, asek homesick je) hee

-budak selebet. ok sekarang pun selebet lagi. hehe.

-good in japanese dulu. demm., rindu nak ckp jepun ok

-tengah sebuk hafal nama2 seniors, kot?haha. rindunyeee :P

-sebuk cari reasons every weekend sbb nak balik overnight. hehe

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
- bawak satu pemili pergi haji n umrah.

-beli rumah besar2, supaya senang adik beradik nak lepak2. hehe

- beli keta besar sbb senang anak ramai2 nak lompat2 dlm keta. or patut beli bas je? :p

-shooooppppingggggg

-menabung untuk hari tua. hehe

5 of my bad habits:
-i procrastinate a lot now :(

-sgt pemalas

-sangat cepat rasa nak marah ( maybe i should do a thyroid fx test no? )\

-emotional.hahaha

-erm..boros?? hehe

5 places I’ve lived/living:
- pahang
- jalan kolam ayer
- cyberjaya
- UM
-shah alam/ selayang

ps : tanak tag sape2, sape nak buat boleh buat. sape tanak buat kene buat jugak. heh

pps : sumpah ade mood swings. kenapee?? this is all YOUR fault ok. YOURS alone. huh. (hee, tgk tu nak salahkan org pulak dah :P)

mode sedih.

sedey.

mahu tahu kenapa?

my cammie, olympus sudah rosakkk.

daymnnnn.

i am officially depressed T_T

low mood. anhedonia. tapi hypersomnia. hehe

sedihnye la rasa.

cammie tu baru je berusia setahun tujuh bulan. sedih sebab byk sgt memories. :(

well then, maybe it's a sign to build up new memories eh?

but sedih gile jugak. camera tu la yang tolong capture kan gambar2 ariel peterpan mase pergi concert dorang satu masa dahulu T_T

LCD die pecah. pecah kaca pecah gelas. pecah LCD tak leh nak buat apa. (huh tade kaitan :P)

so i went off nak tanye2 harga kalau nak repair berapa. and....

harganye rm300++. shite!!

mahal sangat kann? like u can totally buy a new cammie if u add few hundreds lagi kann?

:(

so yes. kesian aku.

nak g holiday-ing kat langkawi pun dah tak best :((

majokkk!!

goodbye cammie. i love u lots u know? but now cammie pun dah pergi tinggalkan saya :(

and. satu lagi.

my mom's elder sister just passed away

baru je dapat text message dari kakak2.

innalillah. :(

pergi lagi seseorang dari hidup ini.

ajal maut di tangan Tuhan kan?

mari kita sedekahkan al-Fatihah untuk beliau. semoga roh dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang beriman. Amin.

so peringatan untuk diri sendiri.

sesungghnya kita semakin menghampiri mati.

maka tinggalkanlah perkara sia-sia.

dan berusahalah sebelum kita semua pergi.

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berjaya!! :P