thing about me is
i was hurt few times before
and i havent feel anything for 1year plus
until now
till this moment
im feeling it all over again
the thing is
im not sure
im not confident enough

i knw its weird
this one person
is a different person than me altogether
hes a cheerful person
a caring brother
a loving son
we live in 2 different worlds

and i dont know how
and i dont why i let myself to feel this again
truth is
im scared of the feeling again
so scared that i feel like slapping myself everyday for falling
sighhh

but what if
what if, if this is the one chance for me to be happy?
what if, if i dont take this one chance
he'll disappear into thin air
vanished
invisible

please guide me Allah
dont let me fall for him if hes not the one

truth is
i just want him to be happy
to have the best of everything
even if that doesnt include me in it

maybe this is the real meaning of caring for someone? :)