ive got soo many things to write initially

and that was yesterday

im off today...isnt that nice? :) and rare, of course ;p hehe

so far, it's been almost a month since i started work

it's been hectic, challenging, kadang2 menggugat kesabaran dan keimanan

being me.. its not easy.

but i know there are others yang diluar sana yang lebih hebat dugaannya

so i know i should not complain

but being a human, i complained a lot

this one month, i cried. i regret. i did a lot of things i know i shouldnt do

i started thinking back of why i chose this path

its wrong, its sinful, i know that.. but i did it anyway

my bad, i know

i once felt like quitting but i know that this is my destiny

so there's no way i can go against fate, can i?

the only thing that keeps me going on

is the support from my loved ones

who believes in me, when i clearly doubt my own capability

i try to convince myself, that everyday, im helping to save lives

and that helps.

seeing a newborn is safely delivered, and the expression of the mother when they first heard the cry of their babies....sangat amazing

and i tried and tried to picture my own beloved mom when she delivered us...

its a hell challenging job, i shall say

because it involves two lives instead of one

and tolong doakan saya bertemu kekuatan hari ke hari.....

tolong ingatkan saya agar jangan mengeluh walaupun jadual oncalls yang sangat memenatkan

but im coping

and im doing finee

so i guess, im surviving :)

*walaupun lately im wishing for that one person to hear me... yes, im starting to miss him again.so bad.but i hope, if youre reading this, i hope you're doing fine.

but i think its not that bad..just mentally and physically challenging* now that sounds bad. haha*

sebab i still have time to hang out with my sisters, tengok teater uda n dara, sempat berhanyut bersama2.. heee

*yes, i still follow faizal's shows if u wanna know. haha*

merindui teman2 uitm mcm damnnn~ rinduuu gilaaaaaaaaa

sumpaaahhhhh :((((

rindu kehidupan semasa medical students...i wish for that time to never end.

okay now. dah emo.

tapi kak rozi lifted my spirit by her status in fb :)

Hari yg merah; benar ada amarah, gurisan berdarah, resah dan fikiran tak tentu arah.

Hari ini kekal merah jambu; ada rindu menggebu, diburu rasa perlu, fikiran tidak menentu.

Hari kelabu; buntu, tidak tahu, menunggu, membisu.

Kata saya; warna apapun itulah jln hidup yg mesti kita lalu.